just some thoughts

Euphoria

  I've been in a really good spot mentally recently. I know most people probably don't care. I mean, I doubt people read this. I haven't interacted with anyone on Wattpad in actual fucking years. Next to nobody knows I'm even writing this right now.
  But I don't care. I have struggled with my mental health so much, and the fact that I have been consistently enjoying myself for the past few months is truly incredible.
  I only really noticed it around January, but it may have started before that. I'm not really sure.
  I finally feel like I've cemented my existence within my social bubble. I have friends and family who truly care.
  Of course, this happened right as the state I live in started passing some pretty aggressive anti-trans laws. As seems to be what a lot of states in the US have been doing recently.
  It is a truly, TRULY AWFUL time to be trans right now. There's a reason I'm moving to Canada the second I'm able to.
  But, besides that, I've been doing good. I've made an effort to try and avoid Twitter recently, because most of what's on my TL at the moment is trans people talking about all of the awful shit going on, and I'd rather not take that hit to my mental health right now. Because I know if I see one, I'm gonna start looking through the comments for literally no reason.
  I might also be meeting up with a friend that I haven't hung out with in a while soon. As in like, next week or so, which is really cool.
  On top of that, I'm going to an awards show-type thing that my theatre teacher sets up every year for my school. It's all red carpet attire, and I've ordered a black dress and flats for it. This will be the first time in a while that I'll be going out in women's clothing. And it's FORMAL women's clothing, which I've been obsessed with recently.

  Anyway, if you're someone who's having a hard time, trust me when I say things will improve eventually.