Rain In My Heart

RAIN IN MY HEART 

Do you know the feeling when someone special to you leave you behind?. Feeling that can make you easily cry when it had been talked about other. The feeling of stabbing in your heart over and over again until you loose consciousness.

That feeling I feel when I was 5 and up till now.
She left me. She left us behind.

The world is unfair really. For somewhat reason I choose to do it too. I Choose to left first. I know to myself that I left them wondering whyd  I do that to them. We promise to not break it but who am I to fool..myself? I don't even know why too.

Maybe because I don't want to feel them the way I feel when someone leave you behind specially the one everyone's has. Mother. A loving mother who always there beside you. The one who comfort you,support and assured you that no matter what happens it'll be okay and she's always there beside you.

It's hard. To grow without a mother.

I don't want to feel them that pain. I know they think me as a selfish and unfair one who make a promise but never do it. I know I can't walk that talk but can I talk and do it secretly?.

I maybe a foolish one for them and for him. But believe me it's true what I'm showing to them when the time we were spending time together laughing  and joking.

I secretly liked him. But I've never had a chance to tell what I feel towards him.

I choose to abandon him/them first...while they could still miss me.

I choose to face the rain and soon became a hurricane I never expect to become. The pain that my heart feeling for so long.

The Rain In My Heart...

-a.m