A Choice Between _LIFE And DEATH_

Chapter 1

Hi, my name is  Victoria Villanueva

I hated myself, my life, my fate, my destiny, people, everyone and everything. Every night, I would wish to the stars and moon that maybe they should make control of things here in our world like they will make us choose to between life or death.

I though things would stay as it was and then one day the moon and stars granted my wish. So many people picked  life, i don't understand why they don't wanna die, what's the purpose of living anyway, and then suddenly I learned and realize that they have a person who they care and love so much to the point of wanting to be with them, to live a life with them. I envy them so much, them having a will to live this life meanwhile  i don't even know my purpose, why am I still even alive, I really can't wait to choose and end everything since I'm tired and so that, i can rest but, but you can only pick when you are 30 years old, but why should it have to be 30 it's too long, I am now 15 and I have no other choice but to wait patiently until the day comes, the day when I can finally choose.
Between Life and death

Today is school day so, i woke up early to get ready and go to school so that i won't be late. and get yelled again by my teacher

I am now in school and walking to my appointed classroom. When i entered there are so many students and they are staring at me  which is annoying since i hate socializing so much
i decided to just walk until i reach my chair beside the window. The teacher came and started discussing our lesson while I stare at the athletes playing from the window it was peaceful but not until she spotted me and ask me and asked me a question.

"Uhh you girl at the back the one beside the window, I didn't notice you until now, and this is the first time I saw you. Are you perhaps a transferee?" The teacher asked

"Yes, I am. My name is Victoria Villanueva"

As i said that her expression went from curiousity to  shock and said

"Wait are you perhaps the daughter of the late president of this university Mr Victor Villanueva and Mrs Melissa Villanueva?" She said

"Yes"  The teacher went silent and then bowed at me which made everyone shock. After the introduction finally she continued the class and, as the time elapsed the class finally come to an end.

I decided packed my things and go home, that's what i had in my mind and then my parents suddenly flashes in my head, while my heart started to miss them, i bought flowers then went to their grave. This is the first time i visited them since their burial. After visiting them I decided to finally go home and do my routine, then went to bed

Fast forward

Today i woke up feeling neutral as always, I got ready and repeated what i did yesterday except for going to the cemetery. The difference is that I met someone today. He talks and smiles a lot he was friendly he looks so happy as if he doesn't have a any problems, I was wondering what made him so happy? Like what is it like to be happy? I got curious until evening I couldn't get his smiling face out of my mind so I didn't get a winked of sleep as a result.

The next day I decided to go to school  and find that boy again. After a few hours of searching I finally found him sitting at the garden, listening to music and reading i say next to him and then he looks at me and smiled, which made my heart flutter for some reason at the same time I felt jealously like how does it feel to be genuinely happy I unconsciously asked

"Why are you so happy? What it is like to be happy? Is everyone in this world happy? Is it only me living this kind of life without feeling anything especially happiness? "

He was surprise by what I just said and I was suprise too like why did I even ask so randomly. I ran because of embarrassment and went home even though it's still not time to go home. I locked myself in my room questioning myself why I did that.
After hours of over thinking and rethinking all the things I did I finally fell asleep..