Fanfiction

Chapter 1: Finding You

I leaned against the couch in my living room, closing my eyes. My body hurts. Each part of it. Should I have gone to the gym instead? Maybe working out would have help me get rid of the pain. I feel like, it will hurt, if I even move a little. 

I sighed. I should take a shower and sleep. This filming whole day was really taking a toll on me. I stood up and dragged myself to my bedroom. I looked around. 

Everything is messy. I woke up so early today that I couldn't even make the bed. I groaned in frustration and sat on the bed. This is really not healthy. I keep working and working these days. I feel weird. I used to love working all day. I felt like, it was giving meaning to my life. But now, I don't know anymore. I feel like doing nothing. Yet everyday, I have to drag myself to work.
It is like, I have nothing to look forward to. Like, everything is bland and has no meaning. There is nothing exciting or worthwhile anymore. And there's always this continuous urge to lie down on bed and just sleep for days. 

A constant ringing. 

Oh God! who is it? My head! Wait, was I sleeping? 

I tried to open my eyes and sat up. My head and neck hurts. I looked around and tried to understand what's happening. 

The ring again. I found my phone near my pillow. I don't remember when I slept. I didn't even freshen up or change. My room as messy as it can get, just like before.

I received. 

" Did I wake you up?", Manager hyung asked, as soon as I received. 

"No no.", I said, trying to ignore the throbbing pain on my temple. 

" ah, I wanted to ask, if you had the time to look through the new script yet. They want your confirmation soon. They are hoping, by tomorrow" 

Oh shit! I totally forgot about it! 

" I will go through it. Don't worry hyung", I said and looked around to remember, where I kept the script.   

" Alright. Take rest, Eunwoo-ya" 

" Yes yes" 

He hung up. 

I put my phone down and lied down on the bed again. I have to go through the script before I get some rest.  Otherwise I will keep getting worried about it. 

I have zero energy to get up and do anything at all, as a matter of fact. Regardless. I sighed and forced myself to get up. Made my bed and ordered some sandwiches. 

By the time, I showered, the food was on my door. I finally took the script and sat on the couch with my food. I turned on the TV, and tried to watch news for a while. Then got bored and decided to read the script. 

"FANFICTION" 

The title of the drama. 

Fanfiction? What is it? What is fanfiction? Is it a word, the writer came up with? 

I took my phone and searched for it. It says, fanfiction is a story written based on various characters or series. What does this even mean? It doesn't make any sense. What kind of stories? How is it any different from other stories? Okay, so what I understood for now is that, it is a story. I can go ahead with that. 

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Why is it always that we get distracted, whenever we take our phones. So, after around an hour, I realized, I was browsing Instagram instead of reading the script. I didn't even open the script yet. I tried hard to stop that pang of guilt and anxiety from affecting me. I told myself, it is okay to not do nothing fruitful! It is okay to just laze around for a while. This is what I have been trying to convince myself, for the last few years. That it is okay to not work all the time. So far, no luck. I kept feeling guilty and anxious.