YOU and ME

chapter 1

*Shreya* pov  ~

*on phone*

"yeah,.... I will see ... let me talk to papa first.. yeah ik ik .... k byee -_- "

*hung up*

"what was she saying" asked papa while doing the dishes

"she is saying that i should accept the scholarship , and the university is near her apartment . its been a while i haven't seen her ...." I replied

"hmm " papa took a deep breath " Tum kya chahti ho ?, i mean after all its your dreams ... not my life "   ( tum kya chahti ho = what do u want ") papa sat down on the couch with a serious face

" I don't want to leave you !!, after all these years she contacted me and now she is saying to leave you and go aboard ????, wo apne aap ko smjhti kya h ??"  I said with angry tears in my eyes (what does she think of herself )

" betuuuu!!! ( darling !!!), I am sure she still cares about you after all its about your studies !!..  she has no intentions with that ... she is a busy doctor ! unko samay nhi mila hoga  ( she may have not got time ) ! . just think how every thing would be a new start !! ... "  papa said hugging me

" but papa you?? T_T "

" mere baare me chinta matt karo ( don't worry about me ) you wont get any better opportunities in this small town !your future is bright !!!... you got the inspiration from your mum only . she would be the best guidance in this new journey !!" said papa

I WAs  still not convinced !!!

a women who left me at the age of 14 !!!!THE AGE  that a child needs her mother the most !!!... she had promised me that she would call me everyday !! looks like she even forgot my bday !!I COULDN'T imagine the idea of staying with her about the next 5 years of my life with her !!!

papa :"Darling !! , think that you might meet bts !! that just had completed the military service !!"

me : "papa they are IDOL !!! THE VIPs!! how come me an ordinary girl can meet with them !!!??"

papa : who said you are ordinary !!! betu you are my princess !! you are going to be doctor one day !!! this world need more doctor !! , you will be the one who would save lives including there armies and it could be also them !! think big broooo

I was a little convinced ..... not for bts but yeah for y goal..... because i live in a town where there is no proper collage and .... yeah it also would be a foolish decision to turn down this offer ..... i decided to give myself some time to think about it ... there is a whole month left when the university  opens

..In my room I sat on my bean bag stretching my hands an legs ...I scrolling my eyes across the room .. then my eyes fell on a very old photo album at the top most self of the book self

I got up on a chair to get it

"aree baap re !! "(oh my gosh )  *coughs *

"so dusty "

I lay on the bed and turn the pages .."2011 December Ulsan  "

i was just 5 years old .... we had a happy family!! we stayed there for 5 years !... from 2010 -2015... then we have to come back to India because of nana ji (grandpa maternal ) He wanted his daughter in the country !! then papa got job at a small IIT Institute , a government job  where he would be a  professor and teach physics  ..... now its been 10 years here ... Time flies right...?

my papa loved the life in Korea because the places were near  than in India plus less crowded than India ! and where he got the job was a small town with no facilities of higher education ....after staying here for 5 years our papa wanted to see Korea so on 2020 march 1st week we were in Korea the pandemic was not started but at the end of 2nd week the government declared a curfew ... my mum was a always a generous person .  i met with the people of the hospital in which she worked at before coming  to India ... they begged for help with the increasing cases of Covid 19 as she was a excellent doctor plus in was also a small place where it was not easy to get a doctor like her  ....   we had to leave her as the tourists were forced to go to there own country .. i cant believe ... she just let go off me for the greater good of people...we never had a healthy family bond anyway after coming to India

i guess these lines were true ..." a hero will give up on you for the greater good but a villain would give up the whole world for his princess "

I was devastated first 2 years because it was a horrible condition in India especially during the 2nd wave ........ my 9th grade  was online ...

then pandemic was loosen and school opened in 10th grade.... BOArds ...

i expected her to come back before my annual exams but she didn't .... i was really heart broken .... she didn't even called back or remembered my b'day ... it seemed like she forgot her own daughter ...!!

my boards didn't go well .... i got 77 % ... i wish she was there ...

all the thoughts passed my mind as i turned the pages of the album .. tears rolling down my eyes ...

SHE ghosted us ...

I really missed her .... i didn't know what to do that moment .. just this hurtful past came like a nightmare upon me ... bts songs really make me felt like a escape during this time and even also right now .....

i spend the whole night i kept thinking about it crying at time , and gazing on the ceiling fan at times ...

then finally i woke up at 9:30 with a heavy head  and decided to go ....

i asked papa if he would to go back cuz he always have loved that place ??

"nah~" said papa with a sigh " one day apne desh ko wapas ana hi padega  ... "( one day you have to come to your own land )

i was shaken-ed by those words "huh?????"

papa pat my head and said : " i know .... but its our own country India own people are here !, i don't think i would fit there any more there .. i was a youngster like you !!! I had fun exploring and handeling   new things ... at this age staying in your own country is the best ! ... the way you cant stay away from your home ... and you have to come back to your home ... the same way you have to come back to your place .. your own place where you belong .. in the land where you were born!

papa paused for a moment " you are young ! , you must go and learn and make our country a better place !!"

i was silent and just nodded, i really didn't expected this ...

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