A Wonderful Nightmare

Chapter 3

Luna's POV

"I hate you. Lumayas ka sa pamamahay ko!!" My mother shouted to my Father while crying
"Talagang lalayas ako rito, maghiwalay na rin Tayo, nakakasawa na kakabunganga mo!!" My Father shouted back angrily.

After that I heard my mom slam her room door shut, while my dad walked out of the house , got to his car and a couple of seconds later I heard his car engine ignited and drove off.

I close my eyes, laid my back at my bed, I sigh as a sign of defeat,  Another day another drama. They always fight everyday,for 18 years of my existence there's not a single day they have a proper conversation without screaming, fighting and hurting each other.   I even think I've become numb for all the pain i suffer mentally and emotionally from this house but I'm completely wrong, I still can't accept the fact that they don't even give my feelings a consideration and opinion regarding their so called divorce. i got  used to this, they didn't care about me. Even so I still love my family so much, I don't want it to be broken, but even I wish it a million times for that to happen it's useless as I don't see any hope for it to happen.  I laughed bitterly as tears rolled to my cheeks. 

My heart hurts so much, I clung tightly at my chest as silent sobs come out of my mouth, my throat hurts as I restrain stopping my sobs to become loud. I frustratedly wipe my tears from my cheeks but it's useless as a new batch of tears rolled down from my eyes.

After  30 minutes of crying I finally stopped with fluffy eyes, I got up from my bed and went to my study table, opened my laptop and continued my story drafts.

You heard it right I'm a writer, I wrote my own wishes,dreams,and my own paradise that I know will never happen in my own life, but I don't publish my stories as I'm aware that my works are not Worth it  enough  for other time and also I don't want my stories to be judge by others as it only my escaped from this cruel world. As I continue to pour out my feelings to my story as my mind drifts to my own paradise.

As time went by, I didn't track the time, I just snapped from my reverie when my stomach grumbled. I  take off my eyeglasses and massage my forehead as I look at the clock, I was shocked, It was already 10 in the evening!.

"The heck!"  I react, no wonder my stomach and back hurts, I've been sitting for 8 hours straight. I skipped lunch and dinner.
I got up and went to the kitchen  to look for something to eat. I was heading downstairs and I halted mid stairs, I saw my mother drinking liquor in our living room while tears rolling down to her cheeks. I feel my heart break into a million pieces as I see my own mom's  pitiful and miserable face while staring at the front door waiting for my father to return home. My eyes sting indicating the upcoming tears but before my tears fall I turn around and run back to my room. I slammed the door and leaned my back at the door as I cried silently. I slowly slide down and hug my knees while still crying. My mind is blank, I feel numb.

After a while I stood up and  went to my table and opened its drawer and took the sleeping pills. I Decide to rest my mind from all the pain I feel at that moment with the help of medicine I  know it will be hard to sleep again tonight.

I took out the medicine from the drawer, I was stunned as I stared at the bottle of sleeping pills. I don't know what got into me and take a handful of pills. Then unconsciously shoved it into my mouth and drank a glass of water. It's too late to realize what I have done.  I clasped my mouth and took a step backwards with trembling knees

"W-what i-i h-have d-done ?!!?!" I was having a panic attack. I was trembling so hard as the pills started to kick in. My heart races so hard, I start to sweat and feel lightheaded. My knees wobbled and my body fell on the floor and after a while my vision started to blur the last thing I remember, my panicking voice of my mom rushing towards me and later on darkness consumed my consciousness