Thought I'd be alone forever (Whitty x Ruv)

Hospital Visit...Again

Ruv waited in the waiting room, again, clawing at the sleeves of his jacket. Whitty had been in the hospital for a week now... his breathing was starting to get quicker and heavier. He looked back at his hands, wondering why that Nun had followed him and tried to kill him. Did Sarv send her? He started to claw at his jacket again, staring at the floor. The sleeves of his jacket started to rip. The look on Whitty's pale face as he lost all that blood was burned into Ruv's mind. He felt burning-hot tears run down his face as he hugged himself tight looking down.

He felt like he was having a panic attack. He started to hyperventilate. He wanted to scream as loud as he could. The thought of possibly losing Whitty was far too much for him. He just got comfortable with his life again, he fell in love again, and now it was going to be stripped away from him. His ears rang loudly as his own thoughts became too much for him. He wasn't thinking straight anymore. He felt like he was ready to...

"Ruv? RUV!!" He snapped out of it, his breathing starting to slow down as he looked to his side to see Agoti and Tabi. They both looked worried as hell. "Are you okay man? We heard what happened on the news. Is Whitty okay?" It was very obvious that Ruv was crying. His face was stained with tears. Tabi went and hugged the taller Russian. Ruv hugged him back, tears still running down his face. Agoti sat down next to him and put a hand on his back.

"You looked like you were having a panic attack. You were talking to yourself, and a few of the nurses that passed by got too scared to approach you." Tabi ended the hug as Ruv looked at Agoti. "What was I saying...?" He asked. "Mostly just 'I don't want to lose him,' or 'why do these things happen,' but one of the things was- uh- 'I'm ready to join him if he dies.'" Ruv said nothing. Tabi sat on his other side. "I really love Whitty..." Ruv said quietly to them, looking at the floor again.

"We can tell," Agoti said with a small smile. It was silent again. It stayed silent for a full hour. Tabi was reading a magazine, Agoti was doing something on his phone, and Ruv was staring at the ground. They waited. Agoti looked over at Ruv and noticed the sleeves of his jacket were torn. "What happened to your sleeve?" Agoti asked. Ruv didn't reply. Agoti didn't push him for the answer

After God knows how long, a nurse entered the room. "Mr. Ruvyzvat?" Ruv couldn't help but smile lightly at the way she pronounced it. That was the same way Whitty did and it was completely wrong. His smile faded quickly though as he looked up at the nurse. "I'm here," he said. "Whitty wants to see you." Ruv got up and followed the nurse to the room Whitty was in. Anxiety started to flow inside Ruv. His heart was pounding in his chest as he attempted to keep tears from running down his face again.

There Whitty was. He was sitting up in his hospital bed, but looking down. The nurse left Ruv to be alone with Whitty. "Whitty?" Ruv said. He didn't get an answer. It was quiet for a moment, before Whitty laughed and looked up. Tears were running down his face, but he still smiled. "At least I'm not dead, right?" Ruv couldn't help but start to cry again as he went to hug him. Whitty hugged the Russian male back the best he could.

That's when Ruv realized Whitty was too precious to him to lose. He wanted to marry Whitty. Love him forever and be only his. He didn't need Sarv or the church, just the man he loved. He let go of him and sat in the chair next to the hospital bed. "Are you okay?" Whitty asked, noticing the look on Ruv's face. "I should be asking you that..." Ruv replied, wiping his tears. "Hey, I may be missing half my left arm now, but I'm not dead. I feel like that's all that matters."

Ruv nodded. Whitty then started to move his arm that was bandaged. "Like a tree stump," he said to Ruv. He couldn't help but laugh a bit. Of course, Whitty was being an idiot after something this serious happened to him. "Why are you like this..?" Ruv said with a light smile. "After I woke up and saw my arm, I realized being negative all the time is just going to fuck me over. I should start being a bit more positive," Whitty replied.

Ruv stared at him. It was like he was talking to a person who finally found himself. "Whitty..." Ruv started, but then stopped. Whitty waited for him to finish his sentence. "I love you so much Whitty." The bomb man smiled. "I love you too you depressed sack of potatoes." Ruv hugged him again. Whitty tried his best to hug him back. It was set in Ruv's mind that he will marry this man.