I don't care if I'm crazy anymore

Chapter 1

(Two months ago, a week after the incident)

Sun pov

I feel so bad, I- I killed Blood Moon and I can't stop thinking about it. I can hear their voices everywhere I go! Am I going insane? Maybe it's a sign? Should I tell Moon? What am I going to do?

"Oooh~ Sunny Boy~"

I hear them. I don't want to live with the guilt of killing Blood Moon and lying to my brother, it isn't okay, and yet I feel so guilty. Who can blame me, I murdered Blood Moon and Lied to my brother, the one who trusts me the most!

"We know you are worthless~ you are just a toy~"

They tell me. It's not like they're wrong, all I ever do is make matters worse. I'm just in the way of everything. I was made to entertain bratty kids all day and rot the night away.

"But that doesn't mean you can't do anything~"

That's new to hear. What did they mean? What can I do? They just said I was worthless a moment ago-

"You can fix this~ you'll know how~ Just put your mind to it and you can do anything~

This doesn't make sense. I can fix what? Know how to what?

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Nothing, of course. Now they don't want to talk. I don't understand. I want to understand! I want to fix what I did. No, I needed to fix it! B-but how? It's not like I can rebuild him... WAIT THAT'S IT!!!' I thought as I got off the couch and ran to parts and service passing up Moon, on the way. Once I got there I realized I don't know how to build Blood Moon...

"Shoot!" I yelled.

'Now what?... Humm... Oh, I know! Monty!' I thought as I ran again to Monty Golf. Once I was there I looked around and saw Monty dealing with some money. I ran over to him.

"Monty!" I yelled.

"What do you want Sun?" Monty asked as he looked at me.

"I was wondering if you can give me Blood Moon's blueprints, Moon needs them" I half lied to him.

Gosh, why is lying suddenly so easy to do all of a sudden? This isn't good, but I need the blue paints and I can't tell Monty the truth or he'll either tell Moon or try to stop me by himself, I can't let that happen.

"He could have called me?" Monty told me.

"Well he's really busy so he asked me to get them" I kept lying.

"Okay- Does he want the hard drive or on paper," Monty asked me as he walked away.

"He didn't specify, so both?" I told him.

I didn't know what he meant by it so I asked for both. Monty, then walked away from me, leaving me alone for a moment. I looked at what Monty, was dealing with earlier. He was making something to scam people with, I'm not surprised really. It seemed as if Monty, was going to scam people with some kind of toy. That's something new to know... Ish-

"Okay Sun here you go the blueprints," Monty said as I turned my head seeing him walking back to me.

Once he was at arm's length I reached out and took the blue-like paper and a hard drive. I thanked him then walked away trying not to get suspicious. Luckily I didn't look suspicious. I made sure that Monty wasn't following me as I walked to the parts and service again. Once back I looked at the blue-like paper, showing Blood Moons blueprints to see what I needed...

"I forgot he's made out of nanomechanics," I said looking at the blueprints.

Luckily, the back of the blueprints shows how to make nanomechanics. Now I have to make over 10,000 ten thousand I think... God this is torture... But I have to do this... How the heck did Monty, make Blood Moon so fast!? This will be a headache... All welp-

"Okay, I need to get-" I said as I read what I needed.

It's a small list, but I need to make a lot of them so, I'll need to take a lot of the stuff I'll need-

"Okay, I can do this," I tell myself as I ran out of the Parts and Service to retrieve the stuff I needed.

Is this what Blood Moon means by I can fix this? Is this what I was meant to know how? Am I at use? Did I lose all my sanity by listening to Blood Moon for once or am I going crazy?

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Fuck it! I'm already mentally ill, I might as well be crazy!