Living my life again:

Part 1

Three years and I still miss him:

I'm in my office looking out the window, I thought how I had it all well almost, I don't have the love of my life, yes I have my family but they can't take the place for my love for Sasha. Shawn walked in and said before we get started on todays agenda I have a visitor, I asked him who, Shawn walked to the door and said come in young man.

Sasha junior walked in, with Milo he said hi dad, Shawn said he'll give us some privacy as he walked out, boy you made my day seeing you, I was just thinking about your dad.

I know dad I think about him every day, he looked at me and said I look so much like my dad, he said by the way why aren't I in school. I told him because it's spring break and I'm going to Cali with my grandmother, she's waiting for me in the car I just stopped by to let him know I'll be gone for two weeks. And I want him to keep Milo for me.

I told Sasha sure I will and to have a nice trip, when he gets back, we'll do something together, he said sure he hugged me and said he loves me and told Milo to be good he left, even though I never adopted him he still calls me dad, and for me he is my son.

Shawn came back and said it looks like I'm keeping Milo, and Sasha has gotten so big he looks just like his dad, Shawn saw the look on my face. He told me Sasha will always be a big part of my life, he would want me to move on and love again. I asked Shawn what's on the agenda for today, Milo sat by the window I bet he's missing SJ already.

Okay Ekim I understand stay out of your private life, you put Reese in charge of our tankers I have his report on how its doing, I'm still waiting on Kens report on Alexander trucking, Ekim just looked out the window I don't even think he heard a word I said.

Shawn, call Ken and tell him I want that report by noon, Milo barked, I told Shawn I'll be out of the office for a while I just left, I got downstairs and told my driver I'm just going to walk to the park, he said without Parker. I told him I can go someplace without my private bodyguard, and I just walked Milo to the park.

I got to the park and sat on a bench, Milo sat in the grass, and I just watched people men women and children, they all seemed happy. I watched a couple sitting on a bench talking, he got down on one knee wow he's going to ask her to marry him, I just smiled Milo barked, okay I'll let you run around for a while. I let him loose and he ran to the couple, they rubbed him Milo ran to the grass and jumped and played with another pup in the grass even he's happy.

Someone said hello; I turned around and it's Brianna once in a while I run into her here, I said hi she sat down and said it looks like I'm dog sitting again, I told her yes Sasha went out of town. She said it must be a lite day for me if I'm here, I told her I just needed to get away for a while. She said she can leave if I want to be alone, I told her no please stay what brings her here this time of day.

Actually, Mr. Alexander, I needed to get away from my office too, I told you since my father retired, I'm running the family business, and my brother is away so I don't have any help. I'm thinking about selling,  but my father says no the business has been in our family for years a Washington has always run the company.

Mr. Alexander told me to call him Ekim, he asked me where my brother is, he should be home helping me, I told him he travels a lot and doesn't want anything to do with the company at all. I wasn't going to tell him that Sebastian is in prison for embezzlement, he took money from the company to pay for my grandmother's surgery, dad pressed charges I know he just did that to punish Bash for being gay.

Funny dad admires Ekim and he knows his sexuality, but hates his own son, the pup ran up and jumped in my lap, Ekim told him to get down, I told him its fine he's such a pretty puppy. Ekim looked over my shoulder and I turned around he's looking at Parker sitting on a bench watching us. Ekim is so rich he has bodyguards around him twenty-four seven, I couldn't imagine never being alone.