Living my life again:

Part 8

Truth is: part 1 of 2

EJ's home, and we talked about Bash's dad being arrested for murder, I told him I wanted to kill his dad for what he did to Bash, EJ asked me what that had to do with me going to that Anderson guys apartment. I told him he called me and said he knows something about Bash that I needed to know.  And Bash doesn't even know what he has to tell me, but all of the other Washington's know, when I got there, I sat in my car for a few minutes to get myself together. See I was still pissed that he put his hands on Carney, that's when I saw Mr. Washington leaving there, I never went in. So, I just went home and told Bash that I ran out of gas, I didn't want him to know I was there.

Ken, do you think Mr. Washington found out that Anderson was going to tell you something about Bash, and that's why he killed him.

Maybe EJ, but Washington hated Bash, so I don't see him doing it to protect Bash, there has to be more, I guess we'll find out during the trial, EJ asked me where Bash is anyway, I told him with his mom she wanted to see him. She's probably telling Bash to leave me, she doesn't like who he is either, EJ told me just wait until he comes back and don't assume anything. He asked me who's going to be my best man him or Reese, Reese came out on the terrace and said he heard his name out here what's up.

I told him EJ wanted to know which one of them would be my best man for my wedding, I told them if there is a wedding, Bash's mom might talk him into not marrying me.

Damn K, I've never heard you give up so easily, Bash loves you, and you've been there for him during a rough time in his life. So, stop tripping big brother.

I know Reese, but, EJ stopped me and said but nothing there not going to let me give up, Reese stood up and said I need to chill, he grabbed me by my arm and lifted me up, I told him to stop playing around don't throw me into the pool, I'm not in the mood. EJ got up and pushed both of us into the pool, he laughed while saying we both need to cool off. I should be pissed but I'm not there just looking out for me, there just playing around like we used to do, Bash walked up and said we're always clowning around he knows it's hot we didn't even bother to put our trunks on. I swam to the edge of the pool and said never mind that, what did his mom want.

Babe, she wanted me to move back into the house, she wants our family to be together and make a good front, Ken said he knew it, she'll do anything to ruin our wedding, when am I leaving. Babe I'm not going anywhere, I thought this was my home with you, has something changed for us?

No, Bash, I know how your mom feels about us being together, and I thought she would use your dad's troubles to get you to move back home. He said I don't have to worry about that, Reese and EJ both said they told me that. Bash took his clothes off well he kept his underwear on and jumped in the pool, he kissed me and said he loves me, and his mom doesn't have control of him, I make him happy.

EJ told me I need to tell Bash the real reason I was at that Anderson's place, he and Reese walked away, Bash I do need to tell you why I was at Anderson's place, first I just want to say I'm sorry bae for lying a second time. Anderson called me, he said he had to tell me something about you, when I got there, I saw your dad leaving I never went to his apartment I swear. Bash said I know all there is to know about him, he wouldn't hide anything from me, I told him maybe Anderson did know something about him, and his dad didn't want anyone else to know and that's why he killed Anderson.

I can't see my father killing for me, but maybe Anderson found out about a girl I dated in college who got pregnant, she got an abortion, maybe Anderson was blackmailing my father about that, he would do anything to cover up our families so called good name. Ken said I had a girlfriend, he seemed shocked that I had one, I said sure I did just like he had plenty of girls, I asked him how many abortions did he pay for, he said none one thing about him he wrapped it up. And by EJ having a kid at a young age was enough for him. I told him maybe my father did kill Anderson for that, but there's nothing I can do about that, let's go to our house I want my man in me right now.

Alice came out and saw my clothes she told me to get my naked ass out of that pool right now, she just stood there as we got out of the pool,  Ken told her to turn her head or go back into the house, she told Ken she's seen what we both got, and that's a lot of dick as I put my hand in front of my private area, I got my clothes and we went to our place, we made love. Well, we fucked lol.

After we finished Ken fell asleep, I do wonder what Anderson wanted to tell Ken about me, was it about Sinclair having an abortion, as I got older, I wish she hadn't, I would make a great dad much better than my father was to me, if my child is different, I would still support the child.

My phone rang, Ken woke up, I looked at the caller I.D. its sis, I answered the phone, she said dad had a heart attack, they took him to Alexander memorial she's with Ekim meet them their mom is already there. I told her I'm on my way where's Carney, sis said at the house asleep, I told her okay and hung up, Ken asked me what's up, I told him what happened to my father, he said he's going with me in case my father is up to some shit.

We got out of bed and got dressed and headed to the hospital, Ken held my hand he said he's here for me no matter what, I told him thanks if something is really going on with my dad, I'm going to need him even more. Bae said he has my back, we got to the hospital and Ekim walked up to us and said mom and sis are with dad, he's afraid he didn't make it, Ken hugged me and said he's sorry for thinking my dad was up to something.

Ekim showed me where to go, Ken stayed with his dad, I walked into the room and mom and sis looked up at me, mom said before dad died, he said he just wanted me to be a man. Mom said as of now I'm the man of the family and I need to think about my sexuality, sis said this isn't the time for that and just let me live my life.

I just looked at my father, I couldn't cry, half my life he said I was a disappointment to him, and he was ashamed of having the same blood, we stayed until they came for dads' body, we went to the waiting room where Ken was waiting for me. Mom asked me am I coming home with her, Ken looked at me, I told her only if Ken comes with me.

Mom said come to the house first thing in the morning, Ekim said he'll drive mom home she said her driver brought her here, she'll be fine, and she'll see sis at the house she left. Sis hugged me and said live my life, and be happy, we went home, and we sat out on the balcony, I couldn't sleep. Ken held me and said whatever I needed he's here for me.

Babe, I didn't love my father, but a part of me didn't hate him either if that makes sense, Ken said sometimes he feels the same way about his mom, and his dad went through the same thing with his mom.

Ken said let's try and get some sleep, we went into the bedroom and just got into bed, again Ken held me, he said it's okay to cry if I want, I told him I have no reason too.

A few days later we had dad's funeral, a lot of people were there, and all of Ken's family is here to support sis and I, now that dad is gone maybe sis can move on with her life as well.

After the service we went back to mom's house, and dad's will is read, he didn't leave me anything, but my grandfather left me money when I turned twenty-five, which I turned when I was in prison I get ten million dollars. Dad left Carney five million dollars, and sis the same, mom got the rest and the house dad sold all of the rest of his properties. He also left Carney a letter, sis is to read it to him when I'm not here, why would he leave a letter and make sure I wasn't around, probably just to fuck with me.

Later Ken and I went home, that letter was still on my mind, but I'm sure sis will tell me what's in it, I wonder if dad bad mouth me to Carney, he knows that kid is my heart. I hate to say it but dad dying was a relief to me, because I didn't want anything to interfere with Ken and I being happy, and mother better get over who I am, I'm starting my life over with Ken.