Living my life again:

Part 9

Truth is: part 2 of 2

After dad's death things are settling down, mom went to Europe and Carney spent his days with Bash, he's not really in the office as much, but he never really liked being here he did it for me. I looked at a painting he did on my office wall, that's his true calling but daddy never wanted him to pursue his dream of painting.

I stared at the letter daddy wanted me to read to Carney, I couldn't do it he wouldn't understand, I started thinking back when Bash was in college and Sinclair told daddy she was pregnant with Bash's baby, she didn't want the baby she's going to have an abortion. Daddy paid her to have the baby and tell Bash she had an abortion; I was living in L.A. with that cheating Anderson daddy brought me Carnell and said I have to raise him he's blood.

I've lived with this secret for so long, after I divorced Anderson, he held it over me and I paid him to keep my secret, Bash will hate me if the truth comes out.

My secretary buzzed me and said Ekim is here to see me, I put the letter with some other papers and told her to send him in, he walked in with a smile on his face, he asked me if I was ready for lunch. I told him I forgot we were having lunch, I have so much work to do I'm behind since my father died.

He asked me when Sebastian is coming back to work, I told him I don't want him to come back, this isn't what he wants to do, he just did it for me, I told Ekim to look at the painting on the wall that's what Bash wants to do, not this. Ekim said can Bash paint as well as the painting on the wall.

I told him that is Bash's work he painted that for me years ago, he said wow he really has talent, and he should follow his dream, I told him that's why I don't want Bash here anymore he's always tried to live for others, it's time he lives for himself and do what he wants.

Brianna if that's what you want for your brother fine, now what about you, is this what you want to do, be honest with me.

No, I just did it for my father, as you know I never wanted to be in the family business and I knew Bash hated it, that's why I just did it so daddy wouldn't force him into it.

Brianna if this isn't what you want to do, we can have someone else be the CEO here, you and Sebastian can keep your stock, I want you to be happy and live your life. She said right now she just wants to spend more time with Carney, they need as much time together as they can, I thought that was an odd thing to say.

Okay just give me some time to find a replacement for you, but for today take the day off go to the spa in the Alexander and relax, she walked up to me and said she'll take me up on my offer she needs something special for her, she kissed me, and I asked her to have dinner with me tonight. She said sure, she'll walk out with me, I told her I'm going to make a call and get things started, she got her purse and briefcase and said she'll see me later she left.

I sat behind her desk and made a call to Shawn, I told him what's going on here and would he be interested in the CEO position here. Shawn said he's flattered that I offered him that position, but he'd rather stay at the Alexander group, he said he knows Ken wouldn't be interested but Reese would love the opportunity to run a company on his own.

I told him I know, but is he ready, Shawn said he thinks so, I told him I'll think about it, I told him I'll be back at the office in an hour and hung up. I went through a file on Brianna's desk just some financial reports, she's done very well bringing this company back up in such a short time, I saw what looked like a handwritten letter it had Carnell's name on it, from his grandfather.

I know I shouldn't have read it, but I did, oh damn Carnell is Bash's son, it seems that Anderson held it over Brianna's head for years. Brianna walked in and said she left something here, I said this letter, I know I shouldn't have read it.

It's okay Ekim, maybe it was meant to come out, it's true Carnell is Bash's son, I told him everything, he asked me am I going to tell Carney, I said some day but not now, and I can't tell Bash, he'll probably hate me, and he might take my baby away from me.

Ekim said he needs to know it's his son, I told him not to say anything I'll tell him after the wedding I promise, Ekim said he won't say anything, I told him I don't feel much like going to the spa, I'm just going home, he asked me are we still on for dinner. I told him yes, I really need that, and I left.

I left after Brianna did and went back to the office, Reese is sitting behind my desk, I asked him how does he like sitting in the big chair, he said it will be a long time before he sits there as he got up. He said EJ and Ken will sit there before he does, Reese, you're right but I don't see Ken wanting that responsibility, but I have an offer for you right now.

I told him what's going on at Washington, he said if I think he can do it he'll do his best, I told him I think he can do it and the position is his, I sat behind my desk I wish I never read that letter so many people will be hurt. Reese asked me what's wrong, did I change my mind already about him running that company, I told him no, I'm sure he can do it I just have other things on my mind, I asked him how he would feel if everything I told him about Trisha not wanting to be a mother, and I offered her the money to leave.

Dad, I know you and I figured you just wanted to protect me and RJ, besides Trisha did take the money and never came back so that says a lot about her. I told him I was upset until I figured that out, but he has to realize we're not kids anymore and can deal with things, dad said he knows, but at the time I was a young naive boy trying to figure out life. He said he will never have regrets about Trisha after all she gave me and Paris our son and Paris Maria has a big brother.

Dad said he's proud of all his children that's what life is all about, I asked him so what's going on with him and Brianna is she going to be my stepmother, dad said they're just friends and he enjoys her company, I said if he says so, but it's time he had some happiness in his life, dad said us kids make him happy. I told him when it's right he'll find love again, dad said someday.