Angst
Pedri's POV
My heart was pounding so hard.
It was exhausting pretending to be interested in her while she was constantly surrounding me.
I hate how I feel because she's so wonderful, but she's always there for me.
There's nowhere I can go without her wanting to accompany me or talk to me while I'm doing it.
Being with her is truly exhausting, but I never told her because I never want to hurt her feelings. But she found out regardless of me trying to protect her.
So I act the part.I know it would have been best for both of us if I had just told Y/n the truth, but I was selfish.
I didn't always enjoy having her around, but I didn't want her attaching to anyone else.But seeing her walk away made the feeling of regret
obvious.
I ended up going back home and I quickly take my phone and text her.
I needed to get this regret off my chest, so I invited her to come over.
I can't believe I'm pacing the room as I wait for her response.
I knew all I had to do was inform her I felt suffocated, but I didn't want to hurt her feelings, and it was difficult for me to do so.
So I kept silent.
After 5 minutes of silence, I examine my phone again and there is no text from her.
It was concerning because she had never taken this long before.
I send her another text and wait.
I had waited all night for an text message that never came.
It has been weeks of her ignoring me. she manage to "forgive me" but there's this tension that constantly surrounds us.
Every time I see her it looks like she's going to burst into tears.
It's like she's lost interest in me or something and my heart can't take it.
I miss how clingy she was towards me and sometimes it was too much but god do I miss it.
Now she won't even look at me.
I hate how she can't look at me.
I hate how everytime I see her she has eye bags indicated no sleep and a redness to her beautiful eyes.
Why was I so stupid. Why couldn't have I kept my mouth shut. I should've told her how I felt Instead of telling Gavi. He wasn't going help at all.
I hate how she seems to always go out of her way to avoid me unless necessary.
It wasn't obvious particularly but I could
tell. I couldn't handle this anymore. Y/n texted me telling me she was coming over which lead us to us standing in our room before she broke the awkward silence.
"I'm sorry." She just burst into tears and my heart broke.
I take her into my arms and just let her cry.
"I tried to give you space because I know that's what you wanted but it hurts so bad."
"I'm the one who should be apologizing. You were always there for me and all I did was complain. I love you for who you are. And I don't want to hurt you ever again." I wipe her tears away. As I lean in and give her a soft kiss. We were back to normal. We were happy again.
Gavi and I were hanging out, we were sitting in my room playing some random game.
"Hey, remember when you questioned about my relationship with her?"The moment he heard me, the paused the game.
"Yeah, you told me it was annoying. Which by the way was kind of messed up." Gavi confessed.
"That's right. I want you to know that her clinginess was what attracted me in the first place."
"Sometimes it's a little too much, but I won't lie, it's really nice to have someone you know who's always there for you."
"She always cares about me, it's refreshing and she always makes sure I'm well taken care of. Knowing someone loves you out loud It feels good." I had to do this for the two of us.
I know she was still understandably hurt, but I want her to know that I am business to her. That I love her for who she is and every time I'm overwhelmed .I will tell her so I don't hurt again "
