Magic Feathers (PUBLISHED)

09

I stopped for a moment when I hear her mumble those words and it felt like a music to my ears, I kept repeating on my head what she just said and it makes me smile.

"And I think, if we can figure this out together, maybe someday, we might end up... being together."

The idea of me and her being in a relationship was good. But, I don't want her to be judge by the society that we are living into. It's okay that it's just me being harmed by them. I don't want her to be harmed too.

"I know, a lot of things are going on inside your head right now. I understand if you can not answer me right now. I just want you to listen to me and to be heard."

I nodded as she continued speaking.

"Everything that I did in the past after you confessed was my own way of protecting myself from our homophobic classmates. And after you confessed, I know that if I didn't distance myself from you and someone from our classmates found it out, they will judge the both of us."

I get her point. We are both afraid. She was afraid for herself, and I was afraid for her. I cannot help but wonder, what if there were no judgemental people out there? Would it be a lot easier for the both of us?

"There's nothing wrong in protecting yourself." I said.

"And I apologise for not being able to protect you from them. And for causing pain, trauma, and sadness too," she said.

"For how many times do you have to say sorry to me? I got enough sorry from you. Stop apologising to me. You are already forgiven."

I did forgave her. I know that the trauma she caused me won't go away that easy but I am sure that will never affect anything between us, in case we might end up together.

That night, we parted happily. But when I got home, I immediately called dad. It's about my contract with the Diamond. The non showbiz relationship and the love team. I need to make sure everything will go smoothly. It's my responsibility to the music label company and to Nica.

"Dad." I whispered.

"What do you need, sweetie?" He asked.

"Could you fix my contract with the Diamond? Please, dad." I said.

Dad didn't answer immediately when I say those words. But when I showed him through my voice that I was already on the verge of crying, he spoke.

"Which part of it?" He asked.

"The love team thing, dad. It might affect my personal relationship with a specific person." I said.

"You just have to explain to that specific person that you need to be paired with someone. The someone who can help you to boost your career too. I know for sure, she would be happy seeing you rise to the stardom. Just explain it well to her." Dad said.

"But what if she doesn't understand the industry that I will live on?" I asked my dad, slightly panicking.

"If she doesn't, well, she's not the right girl for you. I know how hard you fought to be part of the team that you are thinking to leave right now. Please, don't make all of your efforts go to waste." He said.

After that, he dropped the call and I want to calm my mind about all the things that are running into it but I just couldn't so I called Nica, gladly, she picked up her phone quickly.

"Hi. It's already late, why did you called? Is something bothering you?" She asked.

"Yes, actually, about the talk that we had. I was thinking of asking permission from you because I will have a pair in the industry. I am sorry, I signed it when we aren't talking about 'us' yet." I said.