Who Squeezed The Lemon Into Her Eyes?

Part 2

Her father left her family since she was barely even a toddler. Her mom didn't give a shit about her either, maybe even worse than her father. Suu Linn doesn't wanna whine up about the same old family dramas and shits .

But sometimes she thinks it would have been way lot easier if  both of her parents left her starve to death. Or they could have just thrown her into a river . A classic and a quick way to kill something off.

Anyways, She's getting used to with people leaving her. After 23 years of experience in life, Suu Linn has learned one thing about people, it is that they will always leave her eventually.

She couldn't blame them though. She knows that she is a pessimist, too stubborn to have around and a girl that  never even tried looking for a silver lining.

" If life gives you a lemon, you will probably just squeeze it into your own eyes and fucking blame everyone around you for it"

That was what her boyfriend said to her when he left. He said a lot of awful things to her when they broke up but that was the only thing that is still sticking in her mind.

She was questioning herself after this. Is she really been that kind of person all along? She couldn't figure it out but

maybe ... may be what he said was true,

may be she is the one who has been the mole this whole time.

But whatever, he was being a dick to her anyway. A manipulative dick to be exact. He also had serious anger issues. He be like throw a nonstop tantrum at her just because she didn't pick up his calls and such. Not to even mention about his drinking problems.

That relationship was so toxic from the very beginning , she still can't believe it lasted for almost three years.

But when he finally left her, Suu Linn even  had chaotic mental breakdowns , it's quite ironic , isn't it?

Why do people always addict to the things that are toxic to them? Or is it just in human nature?

Do you know that people tends to hold on to a false hope when they are absolutely hopeless? And that kind of act can drag you to your lowest point and fully destroy you.

She didn't know that but she knows now. Even though it's too late and lessons has already been transformed into a form of regrets.

She really thought he was a savior to her miserable pathetic life.

But now she feels like an idiot that she really was  holding onto that belief when all he actually did was bringing more misery to her life. Regrets are the bonus he gave.