THE SUBURBS 1: A Short Beginning

You either die or keep it a secret

I think that its crazy how life can turn in any direction, no matter if left, right, or sideways, everything about you no matter how little or microscopic is always changing, growing, maturing, and can sometimes take you to the darkest places. I don't think I typically see the bright side of anything, it's annoying, and it makes me so tired. I think that is the reason that dad doesn't like me, I hate him too anyways.

Mom is the best though, but she always seems paranoid or like something happened to her, she never told me anything specific that one time I asked her, but all she said is something about this town being a chain...no matter where you go, it will always drag behind you, following you wherever you walk, wherever you move, no matter how far or how much you try to defeat it, I suppose I would figure out why she said that soon enough.

I suppose I never have said to you how I look, so I will tell you now I suppose. I have dark brown hair, many people think my hair is black for that reason, I have a slight tan, which has a kind of red tint, i go outside to tan every summer, and I am Mexican and white, I have eyes darker than my hair, I have a slightly above average height (for my age) of 5'0.

But back to my dumbass story I guess, Zenny couldn't come yesterday, so he came the day after when luckily my dad had to do do adult things again, and or fuck someone else besides my mom. When Zenny got to my house he went straight upstairs to my room since I'm always in there. "Hey Ollie!" He said barging in to my room. "How many times do I have to tell you! Knock before you enter!" I yelled at him annoyed. "Not my fault you don't lock your doors!" Zenny said walking toward my bed, to look at what I was doing. "What are you doing?" He said to me. "Im creating the future of the universe itself what does it look like" I said jokingly, "yeah whatever weirdo" he said to me.

Suddenly I could hear a loud bang from downstairs, it being the familiar sound of the front door opening. "Oliver! Are you home! Your mothers here to see you, be kind say hi for once" my father said as if I don't say hi to her and hug her enough, in a panic I told Zenny to hide because im not allowed to have friends over when my dad is around, but before I could hide him my dad was already in my room. "What the fuck did we talk about Ollie." My father said again in a serious tone. "I'm sorry dad..." I apologized in a soft voice. "What did I tell you about that sin." He said now slightly angry. "No! It was nothing like that, he's my friend!" I yelled. "I know a faggot when I see it Ollie, and in this town you either die or keep it a secret for the rest of your days! Now I want this faggot friend of yours out of this house now young man do you hear me!?" He yelled, "yes dad..." I responded, shoving Zenny out of the room. Sometimes I still wonder if me and Zenny are more than friends.