Dont know anymore (complete)

2

When I parked I tried to keep my emotions in check. I climbed out and headed for where generally Opie would stay.

When I walked in it was like all the old memories hit me at once.

"well, how are you darling?" Piney asked

"I'm alive," I say

he smiled and agreed with me.

"Where is Opie?" I asked

he looked a bit confused before pointing towards the dorms.

"alone?" I asked

he nodded

"thank you," I say before I walked off toward Opie's dorm. the place that held so many memories both good and bad.

I stood before the door and collected myself willing not to tear up.

I knocked on the door.

"Come in" I hear

I open the door and shut it behind me. noticing the room hasn't changed since I was in it so long ago.

"wow. looked at you" he says

"Hi Opie" I greet

"Hi, darling," he says standing up and walking over to me, and giving me a hug.

it felt strange in a way but I missed it greatly.

"look I came here to tell you something I think you deserve to know not to rekindle old memories," I say plainly

he pulls back and looks at me.

"Okay," he says

"I know you're married to Lyla and I'm happy for you," I say

"what about it," he says

"I was in the hospital and I overheard her and Tara talking and both are saying they will go to an abortion clinic. Opie, she's gonna kill your baby" I say before I start crying

he pulls me to him and holds me close and comforts me.

"It's not right. and I thought you deserve to know what happened with our baby all those years ago. and I know how you long to have more kids after Kenny and Ellie. and she's killing them just to stay a pornstar. not caring about your opinion or anything" I sobbed. 

After he comforted me the best he could I dried my eyes and wiped the stray fallen tears away.

"I was trying so hard not to cry. but this fucking whore is killing an innocent kid when it was taken from me. she doesn't deserve you and she doesn't deserve happiness" I say before I turned around and walked out of that room and rushed out the clubhouse.

I didn't listen to anyone calling for me. I jumped in my car and left.

I had to go somewhere I used to in order to calm down.