I need friends (My Journal)

Untitled Part 10

Hey, How are you? I wonder who's reading these, like I just think about the type of people whose reading the things I write. I feel like I have lots on my mind, but it's all scrambled in there and idk how to get it out. 

If your reading this, there's a high chance you at least know about the supernatural I'll call it for a lack of a better word, like whether it's about reality shifting, subliminals, mythicals, etc. Do you still have faith in this? Is it there, or limited in a way? I still believe in this, but it's a slightly an unsteady faith. It's been a long time since I've read mythical journals, and since then I think the community has decreased a bit. I'm not hundred percent sure. If you have nothing better to do, I guess you should read this in your spare time. I mean it's a real life, so it may be somewhat interesting listening to someone's real thoughts, right? Also my "target audience" is teens, not that anyone who isn't a teen should read this, but I do want to connect to people in this community, so thats why. 

I feel like a large portion of our faith gets lost, if it does goes lots,  as we grow up. As we grow up we're given more responsibilities, we became mature, or beliefs change. In school, the amount of work I get should be illegal (exaggeration), but I have very negative opinions towards school and thats another story of another day.  

You know that I really long for friends or just very deep connected bonds or relations. I rarely watch tv shows, I actually practically lived under a rock all my life, partly cause of strict parents. However, there's a show The Vampire Diaries, and I think that really changed the trajectory of my life, but it's weird cause I've never really watched it, I've seen edits, tiktoks, fanfics, and scenes but never like episodes. Whether the relationships are wrong, and unhealthy is another story however I was enthralled by the closeness of them. They seemed so close, like ride or die friends, their relationships spanned years and I wanted that. I think if I had a desire it would be that, however, I've never told that to anyone until now. 

Well I'll end the chapter here, but that doesn't mean I'll stop writing as in maybe in a few minuets I'll start a new chapter or I'll write again tmmr. If you relate to me in any way you should say hi. Hope you have a good rest of the day, wherever and whenever your reading this. :)