Cashmere

Deja's Part

"Man where the fuck is money at?!" I yelled kicking my bedroom door. I've been calling him crazy and he hasn't been answering. I haven't seen him in two weeks. Tariq ain't been home either. I usually don't care but lately he ain't been leaving me money.I got in the car and decided to drive over to Money's crib. Detectives were talking to kira. I parked behind a large tree and put glasses on, being careful to not be seen. After a couple minutes they left, I noticed Money's car was still parked out front of their house. I drove off back home and Tariq was just pulling up. He was carrying a new playstation for the kids and a small wine cooler in his hand.

"Where have you been?"I asked him . We walked into the house. I went into the kitchen to wash my hands and he followed.

"I've been taking care of business."He said, opening the fridge and grabbing a soda.

"Well you ain't leaving me money..wassup with that?"

"You got money. I had some things to take care of."

"One of those things is ME...Damn it Tariq i needed to get my nails done and i didnt want to dig into my savings account."

"So call Money?"

"What are you talking about?"I said quietly, backing up against the wall.

"Oh yeah, I found out . you been fucking on a nigga . in my house at that."He pulled pictures out of his pocket and a voice recorder and sat it on the table.

"Wow...are you serious? After you cheated on me and gave me chlamydia you are mad because i cheated."I laughed

"Bitch..we talked about that. You said you would try hard to forgive me and we could make it work. Making it work doesn't involve getting your lick back."

"Why doesn't it Tariq? Why doesn't it ? I was working long shifts at my shop, raising our sons while you cheated on me with a woman in Costa Rica."

"It doesn't even matter. We can't be repaired...I want a divorce."He said walking out of the room. I followed after him knocking over vases.

"A divorce?! You can't leave me Tariq please don't leave me."I cried tugging on his pants. Tariq pushed me off and began placing clothes in a suitcase. He kissed the kids and walked out of the door. I went upstairs and began texting Money. Still no response. My period app notification popped up on my phone. Damn my period is late...I gasped and ran to the bathroom to grab a test out of my bathroom drawer. I had an extra one saved because of a pregnancy scare I had with Tariq. I peed in a small plastic cup and took the test awaiting the result. Two lines popped up and I began to cry. I was happy because I knew that the baby was Money's but scared because I didn't know how he would feel. I gave the kids dinner and a bath then climbed into bed. I woke up at 3 am to the sound of my phone going off. It was my homegirl Tisha..

I called her back because Tisha knew better to wake me up out of my sleep so it had to be an emergency.

"Tish...its 3 am what the fuck is going on?"I said rubbing sleep out of my eye.

"Omg sis. They found Moneys body down by the bay."

"Your fucking lyin Tish!"I screamed crying.

"No sis, I am dead serious."

I threw my lamp across the room and it shattered against the wall.

"Girl, I just found out that I am pregnant last night."

"To Money?"

"Yes to Money Tish."I cried . I got out of bed and put my clothes on quickly. I needed to go to the morgue to see my baby one last time.

"Damn sis i am sorry i know yall go way back."

"Imma call you Tish..I'm about to go to the morgue.''I said, hanging up the phone. I grabbed my bag and called my maid Sonya to watch over the kids . The sun was rising and I was puffing cigarette after cigarette on the way to the morgue. I parked my car and walked into the building and a lady at the front desk was sleeping on a pillow. I moved past her fast and found someone in the hallway.

"Yes, I am looking to view Montel's body."I asked the mortician.

"Are you family?"

"Yes I am."

She brought me to a room and pulled his cover back. I began to cry at the sight. His body was cold and swollen and he had dry blood on his skin. His bullet wound was covered by a bandage and his lips were purple. A couple minutes later Kira and Money's mother walked in the door. Kira came up and punched me in the face.

"Bitch you aint family."Kira yelled tears falling from her face.

Money's mother glared at me and pulled Kira away from me.

"I might as well be i'm having his baby."I laughed

"Your having my sons baby?"His mother asked

"Yeah, I'm having Money's baby."

"I never did like you and I want you away from my son's body..we want a dna test before we do anything for that child."His mother said.

"You can have it bitch."I said, pushing past them. Kira followed me and pulled me by my hair,dragging and beating me down the hallway. Security pulled her off of me.

"Oh I sent those pictures to Tariq too! You're gonna be broke! Homeless! And pregnant and imma be raising yo sons!" Kira laughed, spitting in my face. That was enough to make me snap. I wanted to get at her but the security guards were pulling me back. I finally calmed down and got in my car and headed home. When I got there Tariq had my clothes outside and an eviction notice..

"You can't kick me out of here. I own this crib too!"I yelled running out of the car.

"Actually I can...you signed a prenup . & i'm seeking full custody of the boys."He said kicking my shoe boxes and clothes. I began to cry hysterically. Within a month my whole life came crashing down. I put my clothes and shoes in the car and pulled out of the driveway. I needed somewhere to go and the only thing I could do was call my mother who lived in jersey.

I drove all the way to Camden,New Jersey and banged on my mothers door. My brother Juan answered the door.

"Fuck you doing here?"He asked playing with a toothpick in his mouth.

"Move Juan. I got kicked out. I need somewhere to go."

"Where were you when mommy almost lost her crib? You aint help then."He said starting to shut the door.

"Juan Arnez Barajas let her in ."My mother called from her bedroom. I stuck my tongue out at Juan and moved past him putting my bags down in the hallway. My mother was in her room and I knocked before I walked in.

"I already know what happened, Tariq called me,"She said. I began to cry and fell into her arms. She hugged me tight and kissed me . I haven't seen my mother in 10 years and honestly, it felt good to be with her. I stayed with my mom for a while and she helped me get a job as a caregiver. I was tryna get my shit together so I could get my sons back.Damn Money. You really left me .