I'm always there for people.Always.But the shit is no one is there for me.I'm always trying to reach out to people,check if they're okay.But does anyone do that to me? I sometimes wonder why I'm so nice to people.Even when they don't deserve it.I hate that about myself.I can't be rude to save my life.Not even to the people I want to hate but don't.I try to let my feelings out because I know it's not healthy to bottle them up.I try so hard to say what I'm feeling but in reality,I don't know how I feel.I don't know if I hate the situation I'm in,I don't know if I love it,or if it's a good thing.I try to indenting what I'm feeling by asking myself questions.It never works.The question always comes to my head.'Who will miss you when you disappear?' The answer is nobody.Nobody at all.If nobody talks to you there's nobody there for you.Be real people.It's everyone for themselves in 2023.Everyone is out there to murder everybody.You can't trust anybody other than yourself in these situations.The only people I trust.Bell, and Ali.I trust Rya but ya know I don't know her that well.The gc is the only group I have left to trust.
The gc has hurt me a lot and they don't even know it.I hate how they don't know it.All of the hints I've given.All the mixed signals.Nothing.I don't hate them.I never will.I love them.I always will.I love the gc.I always will.
