If I had the time to say

"Quitting"

I'm quitting
I told my self I wasn't going to quit
I wasn't going to quit being the A and B straight student everyone wants me to be or the happy jolly person everyone thinks i am to be
In fact I told myself that I wasn't going to quit at all
That I was to push forward and keep on going
Even if that meant I was draining myself everyday
I told myself that as long as they where happy I was happy
But the truth is that there happiness isn't my happiness
I'm not generally happy when there happy
I'm not generally laughing when there laughing
The smile I put on is sometimes a delusion
A cover up
And sometimes it's very hard to keep it up
So I'm done
Others should accept me for me
Not a set up version of me I made myself to be
Which Is why I'm quitting"