Joel Miller imagines/one shots 🖤

i can't help myself for looking for ya

I knew that I had to go, I couldn't stay with him anymore, I wasn't going to pull myself apart anymore to make him happy. When we found the community that Tommy was living in, I knew that this was the right time to go. I sat on the couch, staring at the wall as I thought back to all those years ago, I'd known Joel my entire life, but I knew that I had to leave him, for my own sake and for Ellie's. "Y/n?" I turn around, "Sorry, Maria. I've just been spaced out." I stand up, "You're good, is everything okay?" I sighed, "I'm leaving Joel." She nodded, "You're doing the right thing, you know. Joel's a killer, he's no good for anyone." I look out the window, "I used to think that he'd protect me, that I was safe all these years, but he only ever cared about getting revenge. It was never about me." I pull my jacket on, "I'm sorry." I smiled a little, "I'll see you, Maria." I leave the house, it was getting dark and it felt colder than before. I look up at the window, Ellie was reading something. I smiled a bit, before I head inside. As I went to the door, I heard Joel's voice. "You're not my daughter. And I sure as hell ain't your dad." I frowned, as the door opened and he looked at me. "Y/n-" I turn and I walk away, as he followed me outside. "Joel, just go." He grabbed my arm, pulling me back. "I'm doing right by leaving her with Tommy." I shake my head, "That is not your choice to make, Joel. She needs you, whether you want to believe it not, don't be an asshole." I shoved him.

"Why are you acting like you care?" I look at his eyes, "You owe it to her, to give her a better life. You're giving up on her, you give up on me. If you wanna be alone, fine. Makes it easier for me to do this." He frowned, "Do what?" I take off the necklace he gave me, throwing it down on the snow under my feet. "I'm leaving you, Joel. I'll take her with me if I have to." He looked surprised, "That's it? You're walking away?" I take a breath, "It's easy, really. I didn't have to think about it because you made me real easy for me to go." He backed down, "Fine, you go ahead and leave. See how fuckin' far you get without me." I grab my backpack, before I walk away from him, I felt the tears hit my eyes as my heart dropped, as I left through a broken patch in the gate, I had no idea where I was going to go, I was even more terrified being alone, but I would be better off without him, I knew I was doing the right thing this time. I didn't get very far, when I heard footsteps, it was so dark and I couldn't see a thing, so now I was scared. I try and slow my breathing, "Y/n!" I heard Joel yelling my name, I almost didn't believe it, even after I left him, he was coming after me? "What the fuck?" I whispered, I step back, as I heard running further away from me, "Y/n!" I loved him so much, it was killing me that we parted ways. But, he hurt me and I wasn't just going to run right back to him, not this time. I had to be strong.

As morning came, I realised he was gone and I take a deep breath. I managed to sleep, even if it was a short amount. After walking for miles, I came across what looked like a University. "Damn." I whispered, as I saw Joel and Ellie on a horse, I moved behind a tree to hide. I take a breath, as I went through another entrance. "Stay close, any sign of trouble and you run." Ellie went into another room, as I watched Joel walking around, I turn around, when he pointed his gun at me, "Shit." His eyes softened. "Y/n?" I step back, "No- no, I shouldn't of come." He walked closer to me, as I went to run, he grabbed my arm and pulled me back. "Joel, please don't." He looked down at me, "Why'd you leave me?" He whispered, as he gently cupped my face. "Because loving you like this, I don't want it." He seemed surprised, "Love?" I heard some commotion outside, "Is someone else here? Is Ellie okay?" I panicked suddenly, "She's fine, we both- I couldn't let her go." I was glad that he saw sense, "I knew you'd do the right thing." He gently took my hands, "Don't run off like that again. Please." I throw my arms around him, tightly as he smiled. "I got you, baby girl." He whispered, I smiled as I finally felt like I belonged.

And it was with Joel Miller all along.