pain

the darkness

I took off, and I made my way to school. On the way there I gave myself a little pep talk.I pushed all of my feelings down, until there was nothing to feel. Feeling numb is better than feeling anything at all. When I reach the school parking lot I feel eyes on me. I pull the helmet off and turn my baby off.

The eyes were few and I sigh grateful. I walk into the building

I sat in the music room, and I kept looking at the piano. I decided to play.

I know you got the best intentions

just trying to find the right words to say

I promise I already learn my lesson

but right now I wanna be not ok

i so tired sitting here waiting if I hear one more just be patient

It's always gonna stay the same

Let me just give up

Let me just let go

If this isn't good for me well I don't wanna know

Let me just stop trying

Let me just stop fighting

I don't need your good advice or reason why I'm alright

You don't know what it's like

You don't know what it's like

Can't stop these feet from sinking and it's starting to show on me

Your staring while I'm blinking

But just don't tell me what you see

I'm so over all this bad luck, hearing one more keep your head up

Is it ever gonna change? —---------

DON'T LOOK AT Me LIKE THAT

JUST LIKE YOU UNDERSTAND

DON'T TRY TO PULL ME BACK

Let me just give up

Let me just let go

If this isn't good for me well I don't wanna know

Let me just stop trying

Let me just stop fighting

I don't want your good advice or reasons why I'm alright

You don't know what it's like

( I cut it so I don't get copyrighted.)

I leave the music room and head to the lunch room. I went to get food when Bella spotted me from her table. She stood up to follow me and I turned away sighing. When I turn around, a girl with a pixie haircut is standing in front of me.

??: "Hi, I'm Alice Cullen. And your Amaris swan. Wanna be friends?"

Me: "I'm gonna have to pass on that, I don't make friends and on top of that, your fathers my doctor. Sorry Alice. No hard feelings?" she frowns but tries to cover it up

Alice: "It's ok, no hard feelings here. Promise." I give her a fake smile and say

Me: "thanks pixie, nice to meet you though" I walk away and sit with Bella and her friends. After eating whatever was on Bella's plate she pulled out my pills and gave me the right amount. I grab the water in my bag and take them.

Jessica: "what are you doing?" I smirk

Me: "It's Molly, you want some?" The table looks shocked and Bella nudges me. Since I said it with a straight face they believed me