𝑩𝑶𝑵𝑵𝑰𝑬 & 𝑪𝑳𝒀𝑫𝑬

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August 29th 2022
8:32
MONDAY
AMARI PATIENCE

Life..Oh life

Where do I start?

It's always been said that things get better.. but do they really? Does anything really fucking get better?

Do I have to live like this forever?do I have to feel like this forever? When does it finally get better, Lord?

Will it?

I've lost my cousin to a shooting last week, He didn't deserve it Jayson was just a kid.

Literally 12 years old, I treated him like another brother of mine.

Cause we was, he was my cousin/brother.

(If you don't know what that is it's when your uncle or aunt do sum with your mom or dad!)

I fucking miss him so much.

Will they ever realize how much pain I'm in?

Will they? Or will I be continued to be unnoticed?

Will I keep taking these perks? Or will the perks take me?

Will i continue to take cocaine? Or will it take me?

I thought walking into my first period class, show casing my smile to the teacher putting on my act

It's a natural instinct for me, plaster a smile across that sad frown.

I sat down sitting in the back pulling my hood over my head, usually I would be with Zariah but she didn't come today so I was by myself

The teacher started talking about some "if x is equal to three to the third power, over the square root of 81 then find x!"

I raised my hand with my head still down "yes amari?" "It equals 3" I put my hand back down

"Yes that is correct!" She clasped her hands together