Summer Fling

3. He is gay!

3. He is gay!

The worst thing you could ever have in the entire world is a broken heart.

It has pain, and sadness, and depression. Three things I hate the most. It is inevitably impossible to not feel pain in this moment. The person I thought was such a great gentlemen, different from other guys, was a lie. Nothing but a painful lie.

I know Toby didn't deserve it, but I needed to let the anger and pain out of me before they consumed me right there, on the garage. I kicked him until I couldn't do it anymore. I needed to get Austin off my head, he was all over it, Austin here, Austin there. It was eating me alive.

Once I was done kicking poor Toby, I headed inside and settled on the couch. I looked down at my knee and found blood, with all the sudden change of things, I had forgotten to check myself for any injury. I got up from the couch and walked to the bathroom. I grabbed a towel, wet it in the faucet and sat down on the ground to begin cleaning the nasty blood that was beginning to dry off.

While I was cleaning my knee, I thought about Tamara and Andrea, they lied to me. They knew Austin was here in Rosewood, and they didn't tell me anything about him.

'She will find out later'

I remember Andrea saying that this afternoon at lunch. I should've known something by then, but I wasn't paying attention, I was too distracted thinking that just maybe Austin was here. At last it ended up being true, but not in the way I was expecting it to end.

But the thing is, that even if I did found out in that moment, I would still have the heart broken I have right now, it wouldn't have made any difference. I slump on my sitting position and cover my face with both of my hands. The worst thing of all is that Austin goes to the same school as I do, how will I react if I see him again?

"This is going to be a long year" I say to myself, and it sure is.

"Darling, whats wrong" mom asked me as we ate breakfast "you've been so quite this morning"

I couldn't tell her about my heart break, so I decided to just play it cool "Nothing mom, i'm just tired"

"Do you want to go to school?" she asked me, being her only child, she wanted to spoil me a lot, but well, being spoiled wasn't that fun, people almost never liked you, and what was the point of having everything when it was better if you desire the things and worked hard for them?

"Mom, i'm fine, i'm just a little bit sleepy, don't worry"I said with a small smile. She nodded and got up from her sit holding her plate and placed it on the dishwasher. With a kiss on my head, she grabbed her coat and purse and headed off to work.

Last night the company she was working for kept her very late checking papers and what not. In a way, I was glad she didn't come early, I needed time for myself, and my tears. I looked down at my untouched eggs and pushed them forward, I didn't have the appetite to eat, and the time. I was already running late for school, Tamara came very early, I made my mom answer the door and tell her I was going on Toby. I just wasn't ready to deal with the Austin problem. I felt so stupid, looking dumbfounded when the two of them clearly knew he was in this town, at the same school.

I walked inside the garage and found Toby on the ground, just like I had left him, beaten up. I frowned down at him and then reached out and picked him up. I climbed on top of him and rode of to school.

It was nice feeling the wind touch my face, it wasn't blowing it off, but it wasn't that light either, it was just prefect.

When I came to the schools corner I stopped on my tracks and hesitated before proceeding. I was dreading walking inside that school and coming face-to-face with Austin. Surely I could just hide myself like I always did in school, that was something I was an expert at.