Don't Give Up Yet

CHAPTER 6

*PIPER'S POV*

I was stupid to wear that damn shirt. What in the world made me think no one would see them. It couldn't have been a worse person to see the scars too. Well, maybe except for Ashlee, but Luke is pretty much the male version of her.

I knew he was putting on a mask of sympathy...but under it he was laughing, making fun of me in every way possible.

I hate it. It sickens me, why couldn't he just had laughed right then and there. It would have been better for me. I wonder who put him up to the act. Whoever it is fuck them, i can deal with my damn insecurities by myself.

It had been awhile since i had cut. I hadn't cut since the week we moved. I thought it was all in the past, the bullying the teasing the stress.

Guess i was wrong. It was all back...at least i had a break from it.

It started around 6th and 7th grade. A bunch of my old friends had all the started suddenly hating my guts. They called me "Ugly", "Annoying", basically everything a friend wouldn't say to you. I don't know what I did to them. Or maybe they were being friends, by telling me what i needed to realize about myself.

It didn't really bother me until my closest friend at the time, Elaina, said "Piper, is so freaking ugly, and it doesn't help that she's annoying as hell. I hate pretending to be friends with her sorry ass."

It really hit me then. Having someone you trust say those things about you. It was almost as I needed Elaina to validate it.

She tried apologizing, but I didn't even want to make eye contact with her. She's the main the reason I have trust issues.

Eventually Elaina transferred schools, but it didn't stop. It got worse. Up until last year and now. I've been cutting ever since. I'm not proud to say that, I wish I had the will to stop.

A/U: Hi, i wrote this at 12 A.M and i cant function properly so excuse any grammar/spelling mistakes :) I'm going to try and upload every weekday, but i can't guarantee i'll be following that schedule 100%. Anyways I just wanted to say thank you for reading this...not sure why you are but thank you ily <3