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Hai, so I've been thinking about this series that I'm watching in the meantime and I kinda got inspired by it so this ff is basically an inspiration taken from an Arabic series

hope u enjoy ♡

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Chapter one

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Forget, they say..

It'll slowly fade away, they say..

It's all in the past, they say..

you should move on, they say..

She's gone, they say..

you survived, they say..

But did I really?, it's been two years since misery occurred, yet I still feel like it's been two days since you left, I still can't believe that I lived and you died, I really don't wanna believe my eyes that saw your small broken body laying lifeless on the dirty floor, laying there swimming in your own pool of blood.

Sigh,

It was another lonely night to spend without your presence beside me, without you here to scold me for not studying hard enough to pass the silly chemistry test, another night without your pretty hazel eyes that made me unconsciously dive deep into those two dangerous universes, without you in my arms.

This night was cold, it was the end of November, and I don't feel excited for the holidays, you always bugged me to celebrate Christmas together even though I hate it.

I started getting interested in decorating that stupid tree and putting presents under it for each other, even though I used to hate it

But now I feel more hatred towards it, I feel empty on that specific day that used to never bug me that much, but now it only reminds me of your pretty contagious smile.

Our friends never leave me alone, even though I repeatedly asked them to leave me alone.

They always try to make me feel like it's alright, as if I'll believe what they say. They always check up on me as if I'll collapse out of their grasp,that one day they'll barges into my dorm and see me hanging down the ceiling dead.

But I can't do it, I can't let myself rest.

I should never feel good ever again, after what happened to you because of me I must suffer.

Dying means I'll rest, and even though I die I won't be able to meet you, you're an angel I'm a devil so what's the point if I won't be able to meet you again.

Twisting the door to my dorm open, moving my legs hardly, lazily inside the dark room that held all our memories on every corner of it.

Collapsing ontop of my undone bed, with my hand up my face and my legs hanging down the edges on the hardly touching the floor.

Sigh..

"I miss you so bad...

Yoonji"
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After staring at the ceiling for a good 20 minutes I felt myself getting dizzy, maybe cause I haven't eaten alot lately.

I pushed myself with all the strength I have left to get up and get me some paracetamol to make the headache less,

I don't even know how I managed to get to the fridge where I put all my pills, but I happened to be standing infront of it now, as I opened the door to the fridge it was almost empty just a bowl of Ramen and a few apples and bananas, I searched for Cetamol through all the plastic bag full of pills but found nothing that is even close to what I'm looking for.