She steps out from the shadow, the sunlight reveals who she is & the embarrassment pounds loudly in her brain. Her efforts to help pierce through his pride. His eyes cannot hide what his brain is thinking. Out of his lips slip the feelings he had previously hid. His words borage her crumbling identity & fragile heart. Why does she continue to try? Is it possible for one to be so naïve? She attempts to brush away the hair from her face but as the light reaches her tired, tear stained eyes she realizes the truth.
"I am not her... the women he wants... the one he can confidently present before the rest of humanity."
The darkness shifts over her thoughts. Once again chaos follows her as if it is her shadow. Distain lays heavy on her from all angles. As her anger & fear turn inward her mind screams,
"STOP. JUST STOP! Why must you be who?!? No! Why must you be WHAT you are?!! You are nothing but an alien. Why would he want an alien by his side? How do you not see how lacking you are & the embarrassment you create. Please just shut your fucking mouth & be anyone but you."
The tears once again fill her eyes as her skin seems to catch fire. Her muscles weaken as she slowly retreats.
"INVISIBLE, perhaps that is who I should be... even better, I will be a pretty face & nothing more. If I need nothing then by chance will I no longer be a burden. Perhaps then I will be one whom is safe to have along side."
