Words To No One

Should I?

These heartless monsters revoke at night.

They keep me up and in a fright.

They scratch and taunt me with my past.

They make me want to end it all; I don’t think I will last.

I feel myself grow very weak.

It feels like I can’t even speak.

The reminders of you forever grow

Even as the years come and go.

I feel as though I cannot sleep.

The wounds you have left are just too deep.

These memories haunt me forever more.

I just want to end it all and die on the floor

When evening falls I know my thoughts of you will scatter.

I wish you were gone, I wish you didn’t matter.

My heart is broken and my eyes are swollen.

Even still I cry about you for some reason.

My hearts trembling just from seeing your face.

I just want to end this long sad race.

I’m tired of you, but you never leave.

If I was to lose my memories now, them I would not try to retrieve.

I beg and plead in agony to forget.

I want it to be as though we never met.

I think I am going insane but no one ever listens.

They only think about themselves, and leave me there broken.

The heavens ignore me, and laugh at my sadness.

I really want to die and fade into the blackness.

All of my prayers have foolishly gone in vain.

I’m standing on the edge waiting to end all of the pain.

Maybe when I fall I’ll only hit my head.

I’m still secretly hoping I don’t end up dead.

What if I lose my memories I will truly be free.

But I’ll still be on this earth until something reminds me.

I’m keeping this dark decision I’ve made.

Either this or I can end my life with the sharpness of a blade.

That would be to slow; I want it to end fast.

I want it to be quick so I can leave everything in the past.

The breeze it pushes me and tells me to go.

I peak over the edge and look below.

I smile because I know I’ll fall and make a thump.

I think I’m having second thoughts, should I really jump?