Obsession

The wrong chioce

I hear a buzz in my ear as I slowly lift my head off the bed oh my head is so sore I turn to see the alarm clock it's 3.45pm shit I am going to belate for work I have to be in for 4pm as I try to move my body it is aching all over and I start to have flash back of the night before I look down and I have my pjs on was it a dream but why am I in so much pain, I painfully climb out of the bed and sickness runs through me. I head to the bathroom and vomit several times, I can't go to work I grab my phone go to my phone book and scroll to m find mr carnal and dial the number its his message service and i am so please that i dont have to speak to him directly "hello mr carnal, it's Kate I am not well I won't be able to come in I am sorry for the short notice bye" and I end the call.
I look at my phone 27 missed calls and 8 messages 2 missed calls from my mum 9 off erica shit what happend to her, what happend to me I am so confused 8 no number and and 8 off Kieran, I run the bath and sit back on the floor to read my messages.

30/05/2012
1.20am
Erica
We're are you
xxxxx

30/05/2012
2.05
Erica
Kate looked everywhere for
You Michael is taking me home
I will call you in the morning
Hope you had a good night
xxxxxxx

30/05/2012
2.30
Erica
You will have to thank Kieran
For letting me know you
Got home safe be careful
And don't do anything I
Wouldn't do lol
xxxxx

30/05/2012
6.08
Kieran
Thank you for an amazing night
You were so responsive and pure so
Glad I could give you so much pleasure
Sorry I couldn't stay have work at
8am so hopefully we can carry on
We're we left off last night
Can't wait xxxxx

Tears prick my eyes and before I can think they are running down my face it wasn't a dream it was real I sob why is it all a blur why can't I remember everything, how did I get in my pjs did he dress me my head is a mess, I put down my phone not reading the rest of the messages and slip off my clothes for my bath, my body is sore and bruised my breasts are tender and my thighs have light purple bruises on them, oh my as I look down on my beaten body how did I agree to this or did I.
I slowly lower my broken body in to the bath and the tears won't stop falling my body is so tender it feels swollen it stings for a moment then eases after a moment.
I wash my hair and scrub my body till its red, I grab my house coat and get out the water as I pass the mirror my eyes are a mess all puffy and swollen grabbing my housecoat around me tight get my fluffy pjs and slide them on, curling up on the bed I start to cry again before my body relaxes and I fall asleep once more.

"Kate Kate Kate" I open my eyes and hear it again "Kate Kate" it's erica she is shouting from down stairs, it is black in the room and I look at the alarm it's 9.45 in the evening, I have slept the whole day away.
I get up and throw my keys down walking in to the kitchen put the kettle on and do 2 cups of tea erica opens the door as she walks in Kieran and Michael are beside her "Kate are you ok we have been trying to get hold of you all day, what's wrong you have been crying" I can here the concern in her voice but don't really no what to tell her, Kieran comes behind me and my whole body tenses he turns me to face him and passionately kisses me on the mouth "I was worried" he whispers in my ear "I am sorry I was just asleep, I most of just needed it" I murmur "would you like a cup of tea" "no get dressed we are going out for some food you must be hungry if you have slept all day" "yes I am abit" I walk in to the bed room to find something to wear Kieran is being normal as if nothing has happend maybe it is what I wanted why can't I put all the pieces together my mind keeps going blank like some pieces are missing, I put my black jeans and a vest and my pumps, I don't know how he will react to a skirt, this will do, I put my hair In a messy bun and head back out the room "you look beautiful as always Kate" as he places a kiss on my cheeky "so you approve" I look at him in a kind of sarcastic way, he gives me a smirk then leans to my ear "I will show you how much I approve when I am ripping them off tonight" my face turns purple is he messing and I start to feel a bit scared we head out of the apartment get in the car and head to mee toos Chinese for some food we order are meal sweet corn soup to start followed by oysters in black bean sauce and I bottle of white crystal champagne. we finish are meals erica nudges me come to the ladies I get up and excuse my self and head to the ladies in side the cubical she opens her purse and pulls out a small white bag excitement strikes me I have never done drugs before and always wondered what the fascination with them is, she pulls out her small vanity mirror and pours some of the powder on to it she gets her credit card and devides it in to 2 small white lines I look on intrigued she get a 10 pound note and rolls it in to a scroll erica looks up at me and places her finger to her lips she places the scroll to her nose and sniffs 1 of the white lines then hands me the mirror, I take a deep breath then take it off her place the scroll to my nose and sniff up, I grab my nose as it burns as it goes up and I can taste it at the back of my throat, Erica wipes the side of her nose checks mine grabs my hand then we head back in to the table, I look at erica and see she is looking at Kieran smiles and nods her head he smiles back she catches my glance "does Kieran know I have had it" I whisper" Kate he gave me it to give you he thinks you need to relax a little" and I drop my head "ok" I say as we get the bill and head to the car looking down at my watch it's 11.23pm We head to the club, we walk through and erica grabs my hand and pulls me to the ladies we have another line each, then head to the V.I.P. area but Kieran and Michael are not there, I look to the entrance and see Kieran talking to a blonde girl with big breast and a figure to die for she must be 5ft8 and wearing a tiny skirt and top that shows off her belly button ring he looks angry with her and I wonder who she is.
"Erica I will have a double vodka and coke" I shout over the music Kieran walks over looks at erica who nods once more and his anger fades and he smiles grabs me in his arms so we are facing each other kisses me hard and rough and passionate are bodies touching he grabs my behind and pushes it in to his growing erection "did you enjoy it last night" he whispers softly in my ear "I don't remember much of it I was a bit to drunk I think and cept dozing off sorry" in a more sterna voice he responds "you will remember me tonight" and kisses me again "Erica want you" he whispered close to me""who was the girl you was with by the door"" don't worry about her she works for me go with Erica" as erica grabs my hand and pulls me to the ladies we have another line then head back.
grabbing my drink from the bar and downing it in 1, Erica gets me a refill Kieran grabs me in a hard embrace and pushes his tongue in my mouth after a moment he orders my to swallow, I didn't realise he had put a small tablet in my mouth "what is it," I can't keep the worry out of my voice , "just swallow it" he replied harshly then he kisses me again hard, i have no choice but to do as he says and swallow.
The music seems louder and I can here my heart racing it feels like its ready to beat right out of my chest and I can feel the sweat starting to gather on the top of my head, I know I am over reacting but I can't help myself, my brain is working overtime cause my conscious wont shut up repeating over and over that I m gonna die and my heart is gonna stop, before I can register what my body is doing I am on my feet and running to the ladies room with my head stuck down the toilet as I empty the contents of my stomach.
My head starts to clear abit telling me to get up and run to the door and get home telling me I am getting into things I have no business getting involved in, I am totally in agreement with it getting to my feet I make my way to the sink god I look like shit. I put the tap on and swill my face a few times getting my plan in order to make my escape to the door.
Walking back out through the door I take a look to the VIP area erica is sitting with michael, Kieran must be in the men's room I mentally tell myself now is my chance to make it out, I take 5 steps towards the door when tight hands grab my arms from behind I know it's Kieran as he puts his mouth next to my ear "WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU GOING" he growls, I could feel the sick start to rise again but with all my strength I hold it back "I need to go home I don't feel to good" I stuttered trying to turn but now his fingers are marked in my skin and I can feel the nails start to dig in, I am sure I could also feel the trickle of blood "Kieran please let go of my arms your hurting me" I tried to say when he spun my around to face him and his hand moved from my arm to a tight handful of hair "your not going anywhere ya fuckin slut you are staying here with me till I say other wise" before I can stop myself from reacting my head pulls back then smacks forward and connects with the bridge of his nose he lets go of my hair and arm to check the damage but he is not fast enough and my knee makes contacted with his man parts he falls to the floor holding himself with one hand and trying to stop the blood with the other, I take one last look of this face, the face I thought was of an angle but what looked back was the devil himself the anger was frightening, I turned to make my way out the club but I feel his grip on my ankle, before I new what was happening he was over my body pinning me to the floor of the club, I feel every punch before it connects with my face, I try to curl in a ball, but that just seem to make him worse he stands over me kicking any part of my body he can make contact with.
People surrounded us and I take a chance to see what is going on the bouncers seem to be trying to cool him down, but none make an attempt to help me.
a few of the men standing around make a bee line for me and help me to my feet and lead me to the door of the club the faces that we walked past are in complete shock as they stir at my battered blooded face and body.
I can here Kieran screaming to the men that were helping me out, to get away from me, I was his and then hell broke out again and the poor men helping ended up in the middle of it all.