Can we fall Once again?

Chapter 1: Boy Talk

Knock... knock...knock

"Liam, are you alright? Please go downstairs. There's someone wants to talk with you.!" my mom says from outside of my door.

I was sat in a corner, grieving and can't still believe that she left me. It's been a year when my ending happened. It was so real for me but clearly love is just a game for her. I keep on crying everytime I feel the pain. Though, it's an awkward moment for a guy to cry,but I did. Tears are rolled down on my face as I whispered "I don't want to be myself anymore" and I never stop asking "What was wrong on me?"

"Liam, he's now here! Open the door." my mom repeated.

I never make any noise bacause I want to be alone. I feel better if there's no someone disturbing me.

"Liam, dude. Niall here! Please just let me in!" he begs while knocking my door.

When I heard Niall's voice, I felt pity because he's begging just to talk with me even he waits for a couple of hour before I let him in. Maybe he has a big concern on me. Niall is my childhood bestfriend. We're partners in doing stupid things wayback we're kid. We shared also some twist and turns, secrets and problems. He knows everything about me and even my private life. So, I take a deep breath and stood up going to the door. I hold the knob but I count first.

1..2..3

I slowly twist the knob to unlock the door and I walk over my bed  while waiting for him to come in. When he finally goes, he sits beside me and extend his arms over my shoulder.

"C'mon Liam what's going on? Tell me" he ask me with a big concern drawn in his face.

I refuse to speak and chose to be in silence. I bowed my head and sighs.

" Liam, it also hurts for me as much as it hurts you. Remember ,you're my dude ever since! So whatever your problem is, don't hesitate to tell me. Your problem is my problem too." he says.

"But Niall.... *sigh* You don't barely know how it feels. You don't know what am I feeling right now! You don't know Niall! You don't know!" I respond with a low raspy voice.

" So what is it? Tell me." he begs as he eagerly wanted to know about that matter.

" You  know what Niall, It's hard to be left behind by someone who you truly adores in the rest of your life. I did everything for her but pain is what I've got." I replied and tears are started to drop on my face.

He hugged me tight and he says " Don't feel sad over someone who gave up on you dude, feel sorry for them bacause they gave up on someone who would have never given up on them.

Look Liam, maybe she's not the perfect one for you and she didn't deserve your love as well. One time, she will realize that you're a big lost! " he adviced on me but I nod my head as a sign of response and keep for being speechless.

" I knew that she only used you but don't get offend dude. Don't give all your trust for a doubtfull thing. If you really know what I mean....."

"It's okay dude. Thank you but I know your point. " I interrupt him while he's still talking.

" That's Liam my dude. You already learned a lesson! I hope you're now fine!" he says with a big smile and suddenly he caught me smilling as well.

" You know what Liam, Now a days, people will only love you as much as they can use you. Their loyalty ends where the benefits stop..." he shared with all  his heart just to remind me.

I turned my head and stares at him sharply.

"Why? Is there something wrong on what I've said?" he ask drawing his eyebrows in confusion.

"Ahmm, nothing! " I shake my head

"Then, why you stares at me that way?"

"I'm just thinking why you're doing this? " I replied

He laughs.. " Isn't it ovious Liam? I'm doing this to be back the old Liam I ever met or shall I say we ever met. You're now different! C'mon find again your self and let not yourself bind in your nonsense world." he answered back.

"Thanks a lot dude for your concern but I'll try to get out of this. It's hard to get over for the past happenings. Just let me heal the wounds first. It's not that easy and I guess you know that."

"Yeah. I feel you dude. But let yourself free from worries and stress. I don't want you to be a loner one !" he says while tapping my back.

"Niall, I think I prefer to endure the pain than to be in outside world 'cause being there,  I'm free to be hurt once again if ever. "

Niall stood up and shock on what I've said. He walks and walks going forward and returns back for how many times while holding his head. I feel the the effort of him for me but I'm trying hard to move forward! This was the hardest thing for me because whatever I do, the past is still comes and crashing through.

"Oh gossshhh Liam, wake up! If you're still staying to live with that bad memories, your life will still be meaningless forever until you get out of it! he sighs at the same time, he's now annoyed!

"Please, let me handle this on my own. There will be a time for everything... You can leave me now! I replied back and command him to left me.

"Okay.okay. but mind you dude, Life is so much brighter when you focus on what truly matters. Take that from me." he leaves his last words while walking backward towards the door. Then, I started to think random things for what I'll do.

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"Should I follow him?"

"What will happen again next when I face the outside world?"

"What will be the possible consequences?"

"How can I overcome this?"

"Oh gosh!!!" There so many questions struggling my mind. I feel now insane 'cause I don't know what should I do! I stare around and think a way for me on how I get rid out of this but I wasn't able to concentrate. I tried again for the second time but still I can't. I set my mind in a calm mood and grab my guitar to play a song.

Strumming...

I think and think and think and think until I realize that he has a point. I need not to spend my time for a thing that is not worthy to be focus instead, be busy for a thing that makes my life sense...

After that, I start seeking for my freedom outside and live stronger with extra caring in any matters. I start again for the new chapter of my life and I never forget to thank Niall who gaves me all the lessons and ideas. I weened also that being strong is the best way to show people that you're not a looser.

So,  I tried to be back again but not totally I was before! There are some changes on me caused by that pain.