My Thoughts

May 26th

I'm gonna be honest. I dont know what Im doing here. I dont know what I'm gonna write. But in three weeks, my summer breaks starts. These are my last three weeks of 8th grade. And I'm going to be documenting these three weeks. This should be fun.

I have two irl friends who have Wattpad but I dont know if they even go on here anymore. And I guess I dont care what I write here.

Love has always been complicated for me, with my sexuality and stuff. And also my parents dont allow me to date anyone. But I have been inlove, twice. My first love, was a boy. I'm not gonna give out his name, but we met when I moved to northern Sweden when I was 12 and was starting 6th grade. We were back and forth with our relationship for 2 years, breaking up and getting back together. And on Febraury 13th 2014, he was my first kiss. He was my first, real kiss. Not a kiss from someone I didn't love, from someone who abused me. No, I kissed him because I was inlove with him.

But now, once and for all, I think I'm over him. But that doesn't mean I will forget him, because I never will. He was and is, special to me. He always will be.

The second time I fell inlove, was when I was still inlove with that boy. But this time, it was a girl. And not just any girl, but my bestfriend. We had been bestfriends for over a year, and suddenly I just realised. I looked at her one day and saw something Ive never in her before. I saw beaty, I saw brilliant intelligence, I saw something different. This girl, is different, from everyone else. If you knew her, you would agree with me on the fact that she is flawless in every way. And it isn't just her beauty that stunns me still to this day, but how smart she is. She really thinks. And she also happens to be the funniest person I know. Everyday, she makes me laugh and smile. It doesn't matter what mood I'm in, I might have been thinking about killing myself the night before but then she tells me a stupid joke and I forget about it all.

Yeah, I'm not over her. And I feel like I'm never going to either. She is one of those people that you just never forget. And I never will. I'll always be inlove with her.

This turned out longer than I expected. Bye.