The Ticking Of My Heart

Well F*ck

It was now Monday , and that night was all I could think about . The weekend just past in a blur after that , I couldn't think or focus on anything else .

*flashback*
After a while we had to break away for air.
We both just sat and stared at each other for what felt like an eternity.

What happens now.

Suddenly Florence stood up and started muttering under her breath and pacing the room .
"Florence" i say trying to grab her wrist to calm her down .
"I... no don't . I can't . We can't . This...this was wrong . I have to go, I have to go" Florence continued on and on not even taking a breath . I just sat there speechless .

If she didn't want this then why kiss me . Why play me like that ?

"Florence . Stop ! It's fine" I say standing and trying to make her feel better .
"No. No I have to go . I'm sorry (y/n) I need to go" she soon had packed her stuff up and headed to the front door .
She turned back for a split second and sadly smiled *

I hadn't seen her since then, and it was killing me . One because I missed her and two because I was so hurt she would do that to me .
My thoughts were interrupted when I heard the front door go, for a split second I thought it maybe her but then I remembered Lewis and Jonathan would be back today .

I dragged myself out of my room and down the stairs to greet both of them .
"Hey Lewis, how was your trip?" I question pulling him into a tight hug.
"(Y/n) your squishing me"
"Sorry" I say letting go and giving a quick hug to Jonathan.
"So come on how was it?" I question again .
"It was really really good , I learnt so much and......." Lewis rambled on and on about the things they did and all the stuff he learnt about warlocks .
I was trying to pay attention when the door opened again shocking me , as Florence walked in .
She greeted Lewis and Jonathan, and simply nodded at me . To them she looked normal but I could tell her skin was paler, her circles just a bit darker and the light behind her eyes had dimmed .

How can she be hurt

I couldn't stay in that house any longer pretending everything was okay . So I decided I'd find a distraction which so happened to be a beautiful blonde .

I called Cordelia to meet for drinks and she agreed to after she had finished work . So I had a shower and began to get ready doing light makeup and loosely curling my hair .
I just wore a simple outfit consisting of black suit trousers and a graphic tshirt tucked in paired with black heels and bag .

Once I was ready I headed downstairs to the kitchen to say bye .
"Right I'm off out guys . Lewis be good and get to bed early please you're back to school tomorrow. Okay?"
"Yes (y/n)" he says rolling his eyes .
"Have fun" Jonathan simply says .

And before she can speak up, I turn and head to the door grabbing my bag I had left by the door .
As I was about to walk out I felt a hand on my wrist .
"And where are you going exactly?" She questions not letting up on my wrist .
I turn to face her, our bodies closer than expected, and removed her hand from my wrist .
"Not that it's any of your business" i say rolling my eyes.
"But I'm going to have a drink, dance the night away and then fuck the brains out of Cordelia . That okay with you" I say now whispering in her ear .

When I pull away I see her jaw clenched and her hands held in a fist. But also hurt in her eyes .
Before I could think further or let her respond I walk out .
I felt terrible about what I had just done but she was the one who pushed me away. She was the one who said it was wrong . So I was gonna go out and try and forget about her if only just for a night .

I transmuted to the back of the bar I was meeting Cordelia at, as I had to be careful no one saw me .
I walked into the quaint little bar , looking round at all the beautiful decor , until I spotted Cordelia sat at the bar a drink already in hand.

A wicked idea came to my head, so I walked up behind her grabbing her waist and whispering "boo"
"Oh god (y/n) don't do that , I thought you were some sleaze bag trying it on"
"Whose to say I'm not" I say sitting down and winking at her.
We spent the night drinking and talking about random topics.
We both ended up quite drunk ,her so more than me , dancing quite sexually.
I spin her round pulling her close to me and crash my lips into hers. She moaned into the kiss causing me to smirk and pull away , proceeding to kiss up her jaw to her ear, nipping at it slightly and whispering
"Why don't we get out of here"
"Please" she simply whimpers out .
We call a cab and were all over each other the whole ride to her apartment .
Once we got to her apartment it took no time for our clothes to be discarded and us making it to her bedroom.

Things were progressing quickly when suddenly I just stood up .
"I'm so so sorry Cordelia . I... I can't do this"
"What do you mean (y/n)? Is it me?" She says now covering herself with the blanket.
"No , god no. It's not you, Cordelia you are a beautiful woman who deserves someone who can give u everything you want and need and unfortunately that's not me . My heart is stuck and yearning for someone else . Someone who doesn't want me" I whisper the last part as a stray tear falls down my cheek .
I soon feel arms wrap around me holding me tight and I can't help but breakdown .
"I'm so sorry Cordelia" I stutter out
"(Y/n) you don't need to apologise for that. And this woman ,whoever she is, would be an idiot to not accept your love and turn you away . You are fucking stunning and a strong woman . Now go to her, go get your girl" she says pulling away and wiping my tears .
"Thank you Cordelia. I really appreciate. And I'm sorry this didn't work but, I do enjoy being with you can we be friends. I could really use someone like you in my life"
"Of course we can, I'd love nothing more. Now get dressed and go get your girl" she says picking up my clothes and handing them to me .

Once dressed I hug Cordelia and head to Florence house transmuting as I wanted to get there as fast as possible .

I knock her door and ring her doorbell repeatedly for what felt like a lifetime , but there was no answer. I then rushed to my house to see if she was there .

I rushed in searching frantically round the house , finally finding her sat in the dimly lit kitchen with a glass of wine and her head rested in her palm .

"Florence"

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A/n: another chapter done, hope you guys are enjoying the story so far ! 💜💜