STARBOY | a j.jk series

02. red

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[JK; a couple of years ago...]

"I will never be enough for you, will I?!" My harsh voice- full of anger and agony echoed throughout the halls of my childhood home. Tears that I forced down over the years threatened to trickle down my cheeks, but after great practice of masking away my feelings and emotions, I managed to force them back in.

"Oh quit whining," my dad scoffs as he sits firmly behind his desk, not showing any type of remorse or guilt even though he's played a major role in my insecurities and fear of never being good enough. "All you ever do is whine when shit doesn't go your way! You're not 10 anymore Jungkook. Grow. UP!" His voice echoed and it reminded me of all the times we would spend hours yelling at each other- me cussing him out while he continuously told me how 'useless' of a son I was.

"When are you ever going to trust me?" My hands fell defeatedly to my side, my chest rising and falling disappointedly. "When will I ever be enough for you?" My voice fell quieter and all of the pent up anger and frustration seemed to get pushed back down. I broke first. I would usually go as long as I could, yelling and cussing him out but I'm tired...

"When hell freezes over..." I look down at my feet and I could feel myself getting riled up again, but I'm just- tired. "Face it Jungkook..." I nearly jumped at his presence as he was now standing beside me, I cringed at his touch, his hand on my shoulder. "As long as I live, you will never be enough. Without me, you would be nothing." He whispers softly to me as he walks away, opening and closing the door behind him.

Some people just aren't meant to be parents.'

Sometimes I wonder where it all went wrong...

My fists were curled into a ball and the color on them began to fade. A single tear escaped and fell on the table that my fist rested on. It took everything in me to not fight back, I would've... but even a person like me with this much anger still gets tired.

That's all I am, just tired and useless.

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[J.K & ZOË; present day...]

"Bullshit!" His voice echoed throughout the chairman's office. My mouth fell agape and my chest heaved up and down out of fear while Seulgi, Jimin, and Tae seemed stood there, unfazed by it all- maybe they were already so used to it because they grew up with him. Although this is my first time ever meeting Jungkook, I doubt this would be the last. "She waltzes in here and gets handed an opportunity that others have been working for, for their whole lives."

"You've been gone for the last two years, who are you to question my decisions? Just because I'm trusting you with this company once I step down, this is still my company. I made you and this company so that means you're gonna sit there and deal with the decisions I make- wether you like it or not." The chairman points at his chest with a dreadful glare in his eyes. I was shocked to see his son act in such a way in front of all of these people, but I was in even more shock to see the chairman speak this way. When he wasn't kind and gentle, he was harsh and brutal, just like his son. 

"Trust?" Jungkook laughs. At this point, this meeting had nothing to do with me or Seulgi or Jimin. I shifted around my seat uncomfortably while I looked from Seulgi to Jimin who was expressionless. This was all new to me, I have never seen the chairman act out of character- not once and I never expected either one of them to have so much anger. But I do know that they have a past with each other- and it wasn't a good one either. "You're damn right to trust me. I'm your son and I've done nothing but prove myself to you. That's all I've ever done since I was 15! Who is she to you? The woman you're fucking?" I nearly shot up from my seat with wide eyes.