I wanna sleep but world won't let me...

failed hero

My whole party died in front of my eyes and I wasn't able to do anything. If only I was born with talent.
Talent references to as the blessings and curses. Some born with one posses except power in their disposal. Sword mastery, exceptional craft, all control over your senses, with talents some even be able to walk on water. Just cause they born with talent.
If I had power I could've saved Everyone. My party, my friends, my parents, my kingdom, my world. I wanna save them all.
Here comes the blade.
What kind of creature is he? How can some multiple swords. How is this even in the realm of reality.
"Oh humans are so amusing..."
"Others were pretty pathetic...but this one.... I'm having fun"
A monster. Only a monster can do it. No it's more than a monster he's a beast. A demon. I don't care what is he, that's my last of my concerns.
My sword fighting stype isn't enough. How do I even match his speed?
"... worthless..."
"What did you say..."
It's one head burst into laughter at my reply. This all is just a game for them.
"Worthless....you don't even pass the minimal requirements. Worthless, just die..."
"I'm the hero...and that's the title that I have earned through my practice practice practice. I'm not worthless. I'll show you. No you'll know it when I kill you..."
It's another head laughter stops but that grin did not.
"Worthless worthless worthless worthless worthless.... hahahahaha "
It laugh and cames straight at me. With sword after sword.
Evasion is the best defence at the time. One block and I'll die instantly. No opening no nothing. It's not my end. I won't end it like this. I won't....
After another sword barrage. I thought it would be my end.
I can't keep this up. My stamina is nearly over. I'm done. But I don't want to die. I will protect.
"Step a side..."
A catboy come in between us. Holding a wooden sword in an unusual way. What technique is this?
With no effort he cut don't all of his swords. It was so easy for him.
We landed on the ground. The catboy was landing was graceful. It did even made a fraction of change in its posture. Who is this guy? And...
"This is not the right way to hold a sword. Hold it like this..."
I have practiced in my whole life and seeing some messing something that I cherish so much. Just infuriates me.
"Ahhh...thanks"
Did he just thanks me? What is this guy.
"A cat came to have a play...how are you? Do you want me to pet you head little one..."
"Hahahahaha...."
They are mocking him so he let his guard down. Just like with me. I wasn't able to see it before but now it's clear this creature is much more intelligent than it's looks.
"Hmm...no, I'm fine but I would like to make a request. Would please keep it down and somewhere else. You have killed everyone..."
Everyone....? Everyone is dead. No...It can't be. No. No no no no no no no no no no no...
"Are you okay lady..."
"It's all my fault again ....if I was just strong enough. This could have been...." I can't. Why is this happening to me. My I'm having a panick attack. Why it hurt so much. Why I'm so weak. I'm just...
"Lady...if he's the problem, then I'll get rid of it..."
I wanted to say don't sacrifice yourself. It's all worthless. He's too strong. You won't get any air advantage here. It's all worthless...
I want to say, "run, you'll die..." But nothing came out.