Hate that you made me fall in love.

Why am i like this!

It's second period now and it's science. We are learning about atoms or some shit. Guess who walks in Ryder. Why is he in every class with me. Luckily, there isn't a seat next to me this time. His beautiful brown eyes trace too my face I look back too the window. "Ryder your late." Mrs Unsworth says. Ryder looks like he's going to make a quick excuse but the teacher stops him in during his thought process. He quickly sits down behind me. I can feel his eyes on me again. Why is this happening to me? Why am I like this? I wish I could tell Isabella about this but it would be strange telling his sister about this little crush I have on him. I need to get out of this classroom. I need time to think. I need time to breathe. I raise my hand slowly while I think of an excuse. "Yes Evelyn" miss says. "Can I go to the toilet please." I say quickly. "Fine be quick." She replies. I rush up and head out the door I do indeed go to the bathroom but all I really need is a smoke. When I finally get back into the stall I grab the pack of cigarettes I put into my pocket this morning and pull one out. I light it and take a drag. While I'm smoking. He wont get out of my head. His beautiful brown hair and his big eyes and his pearly white Colgate smile. I realise how much time has gone past and I quickly put the cigarette out on the bathroom stall door. I grab my bag and rush towards the classroom. I sit back into my seat and ask the girl next to me to let me copy what I missed while I've been gone. Again his eyes I can feel them on me. I finally turn around and realise he is staring at me. His eyes quickly look back at the teacher. I turn back around hoping he won't look back at me. The bell rings. Finally it's break time and I go and meet Isabella at her locker. "Hey girl, how was your first few classes. Mine were shit" she says while placing her books into her locker. "Heyyyy bitches" a feminine voice comes behind us but we soon realise it's just Lucas. He grabs us both and pulls us into a hug. "Smoke?" I say while still hugging them both. "Come on Evelyn, you know we're not into that shit. I walk off and go too the smoking corner. Well it's not really meant for smoking it's just where we all go to smoke. Then it hits me them big brown eyes once again. He smiles at me. Why is he doing that I can't understand this anymore. "Hey princess." He says with the widest smile I've ever seen. I fold immediately. I hit him on the arm. It's just me and him here. He's not smoking obviously he's not he just stands here all lunch and break. I pull a cigarette out of my pack and realise it's the last one. I'll have to get another pack from my mum later I guess. I light it. "Why do you smoke that shit?" He says in a quiet soft voice. I give him a small shrug while it take another pull. "Your really pretty you know" he says teasing me. I put the middle finger up at him and he giggles it off. I don't know how to feel about this