June 3rd
"Get the fuck out of my house Donnie! You ain't gone be fuckin' and sucking in my motherfuckin' house then blame my mothefuckin' man! I oughta beat you like a bitch off the streets!"
"Mama, I'm telling you the truth!" I cried
"He has been knowing you since a little girl, you're always trying to make everything about you! You've never once cared for my happiness!" she yelled
"But mama..." my voice cracked
"You said I could tell you anything...you sa-" "I also said get out of my house I don't want to hear all the lies Donielle." she said
"You have an hour to have all of your shit out and I ain't playin'." she adds and I felt my heart shatter
"You better hope you and that bastard make it out in the real world since you wanna be pussy poppin' like a choppa with a hunnid rounds." she said
I went up to my room and packed a few outfits. Then I got my box of money, I was saving up just because, everything I needed was bought for me
I started to pack as much as I can then started to cry again.
I have nowhere to go. We had literally just moved to Texas last month coming from California.
I don't know any of my moms family and I've never met my dad or heard about him. And I've never had any friends because I've lived in all parts of the country for maybe 6 months to a year before moving to the next state
I wasn't allowed outside for nothing but 15 minutes. Hell, I didn't even enroll in public school. This is the first time I'll be on my own.
"You just sitting around?! Them bags ain't gone pack themselves Kaimari!" she yells calling me by my middle name
Girl fawk you.
"I don't have anywhere to go. I don't have a phone to make any calls and I only have so much money. Why can't you just believe me?" I frowned
"Get the fuck out of my house Kaimari!"
Bitc-
"Ma-" "I don't wanna hear mama come out yo mouth no more! Get out now!"
"Take all of what you have packed up and leave, you wastin' your time and mine!"
I cried, hard.
Moving my stuff from upstairs out of the front door did nothing but make me cry with every step I took.
When I grabbed my last shoebox she followed behind me.
"I do not want anymore contact with you, I never want to see you at this house again. Do you understand me? Ever again. And get off of my porch!" she said
"Yes ma'am." I murmured
She slammed the door in my face and I heard the locks turn. I got off of her porch as she wished and just started to walk.
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I ended up stopping at a park that I was going to pass up.
I've only been to a park a few times as a kid but all I did was swing for a little while and maybe go down the slide once or twice.
There were lots of kids here along with some people smoking who looked like they could be around my age or older.
I'm 19.
"Can I sit right here? My friends got me fucked up." This girl said coming to sit in front of me and I nodded fiddling with my fingers.
