A pain I wish I couldn't live by
Turns out I do and there's only grey skies
Then I wouldn't be here listening to the lies
The lies that untie
Into a combination of wishing I would die as endless cries
Only one more person you had to defy
And leave me to be you're final sigh
Fucking bitch telling me to die
Don't tell me shit I already pry
This time I'm giving up
On this messed up bluff
Where secrets overcome love
And we've ll had enough
Of this bullshit that you simply call "stuff"
It's really not fun
To have it tied, ready to jump
Though there's a bump
And I'm still facing this dump.
Hold the world simply still
One leap, one gunshot, one pill
No more drills...
Am I ready to kill?
But he stops me with a message
More like a passage
That seems far from passive
Yet the effect is massive.
I watch as he lifts me above
He's not here but ill be tough
And wait for that one last puff
To show we're in love.
Was I wrong not to plunge to the rope
I assumed the possibility of hope
With a bar of soap
And riddled my self respect to cope.
I don't know if I want to be saved.
