Warning: Mentions of body image issues and ed
Type: angst/sad
Anyways enjoy my loves
You looked at the two flirting with each other right infront of you
Heather and ethan being one of the best couples at school everyone loved them together but you didn't as your heart ached for ethan
even if I did like ethan I could never be with him you thought as heather and ethan were clearly distracted bye each other you see heather is a very close friend of yours and you could never betray her like that
I mean after all you were the one who helped them get to get together even if you liked him but heather doesn't know that
"hey heather I'm gonna go to the bathroom I'll be right back"
she didn't even bother to reply back to instead she kept on talking to here beloved ethan oh to be heather
As I entered the bathroom I looked at myself and all I could think of was how disgusting I was like why on earth did I look like this how could my parents fuck me up this badly I'm nothing like other girls
and lets not even get started on my body god it is a disaster I hate every inch of it from my big fat and ugly thighs to the strech marks on my stomach that looked like a tiger had sliced right through it
It's probally why I starve myself I've already lost six pounds bye skipping as many meals as possible
I never really hated my body or thought anything of it but when people started pointing it out and telling me things like 'you should eat a salad instead' or 'your gaining weight' made my really self consious about my weight and physical apperance
But the thing that I don't get is when I eat they make me feel like I shoulden't be with the unpleasent words that were being said but then when I don't eat their practically begging me to eat like make up your fucking mind
i didn't relaise how long I was lost in my thoughts until heather barged into the bathroom
"y/n what was taking you so long come on lets go ethan already left"
"all right lets go heather"
