Jealousy

3 - dinner

I'm still in "my" room. Unable to walk out due to the embarrassment. But when El barges through the door to tell me it's time for dinner. I have no choice anymore.

I follow her out, through the ridiculous long hall again and into the dining room where Joyce, Jonathan and a guy with long dark hair are already sitting and chatting. But when I sit down their focus turns to me, even the other guy. Joyce and Jonathan both know me since many years back but they look at me like a complete stranger walked into their house.

"What..?", I asked after it got too uncontrollable. "Well tell us", Joyce says in response. I stare at her for a while trying to understand what she wants me to tell her. My head is going through everything she possibly could want to know but to no use. I still can't come to a reasonable answer. My head was now blank, every possible thing already passed by. What was she talking about?

"I- umm... I'm sorry I don't... I don't understand?", I said, curiously waiting for an answer.  But all I got was a look, a weird look. A look that really said, "are you dumb?". And maybe I was, because now even El had looked up from her plate to stare at me. "Umm, well, Hawkins. How's Hawkins and everyone?" Joyce said. "Oh" is all that comes out of me at first. "Of course, um, Hawkins is alright. I mean it's not as fun without you guys but nothing else has really changed. And, um, about everyone else, I mean I think they're okey. Lucas, Dustin, Max and I are as close as ever and still hang.", I say before stuffing my mouth with the mashed potatoes laying on the plate in front of me. El gives me a smile in response and goes back to eating but Joyce and Jonathan remain smiling at me. "That's it?", Jonathan says, sounding disappointed. "Well what more did you want to know?" I questioned back at him.  "Well how's Nancy?" he replies.  "And Hopper?", Joyce's ads. I take a long pause because the mashed potatoes are clogging my mouth, I feel a tension growing stronger for every second that passes by without me saying anything.

"Oh yeah right, Nancy's good, you know her usual self. Taking on more work than she can manage alone but somehow she still manages to do everything, and I'm sorry I don't know what's going on with Hopper. I haven't seen him that much since you guys moved. I guess he has a lot to do after the mall thingy. I mean it was pretty bad and there's still a lot to fix", I finally say, feeling a relief wash over me. Jonathan seems satisfied with the answer and I can see him smile to himself. Probably thinking about Nancy. I can't really read Joyce's face though, but at the same time as I flicked my eyes her way, she's turning her head to look at El. She opens her mouth as if she's going to say something but before she does Will and Sebastian come around the corner. Will has a duffel bag on his shoulder and he walks right passed the table gelling a quick "Goodbye" as the door slams behind him and Sebastian. I didn't want him to go, I wanted to be with him, laugh, read comics, tell secrets and watch movies like we used to. But as all these thoughts ran through my mind I saw him and Sebastian laughing as Will got onto the back of Sebastian's motorcycle and both jealousy and selfishness ran through my body. I was jealous because I hated to see him give Sebastian the smile that usually was reserved for me. But I also felt selfish because I knew that it was my fault, I pushed him away in an attempt to focus on El more, she was my girlfriend after all. That's right, El's my girlfriend and therefore I should continue to lay all my time and love on her. Only her. If Will didn't want to talk to me then sure.

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Wow Mike is rlly a simp for Will in this story. Hopefully a reality on season 5 🙏

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