Is it really over?

Chapter 3

On the bus I got cold feet.

I'm so nervous and excited and sad and I don't know if I can do this...

NO!

I have to!

I can't leave him...

I want to be there for him.

Like always.

I'm listening to music to focus on something else, but it was useless.

Every stop close makes my heart rate go up.

This is it.

I get off the bus and walk into a different building first.
A flower shop.

I walk in and am greeted by a nice looking girl.

She looks about my age.

"Hello!
How may I assist you?
Do you have anything specific you're looking for?"
She asks in a happy voice.

"Well... I have something specific, I- If you have it of course..."

"Sure! what is it?"
She asks.

"A Uhm... White Egret Orchid?"
I mumble

Her face light's up slightly.

"Yes! one second!"
With that she quickly walks into the room in the back and returns a few seconds later, halding a beautiful Egret Orchid.

"Is this one good?"
She asks smiling widely.

"It's perfect."
I say quietly.

I buy the flower and buy a pretty pot along with it and leave the shop holding the pretty plant.

I then walk towards a different, much bigger building.

Walking inside all my anxiety is at its peak once again.

I walk to the reception and talk to a nice lady again.

"Excuse me.
I'm looking for a patient called Nathaniel Thorn."
I say, trying to sound nice.

"Alright. Let me check..."
She clicks her tongue while typing on her pc.

"Uhm- may I ask in what connection you stand to said patient?"
She asks.

"Uhm-"

A nurse walks into the lobby, seing and recognizing me.

"He's fine!"
She says waving me.

"Alright."
The receptionist mumbles.
"Nathaniel Thorn is in room 325."
She says a bit louder.

"Thank you."
I say walking towards the elevator.

I get on and press "3".

After arriving I began searching for the right room.

I start mumbling.
"321, 323, 325!"

I walk closer to the door but it opens on it's own.
Out came a woman I knew quite well.

"Hello Christine!"
I smile at Nate's mom.

"Oh my god! Sweetie! Are you here to visit my little boy?"
Christine hugs me tightly.
"I'm sure he'll be happy about you coming to see him!"
she let's go.

"Yea. About time I visit him again..."
I say guiltily.

"Don't worry, hon!
You're here now and that's all that counts!"
Her smile dropled slightly.
"I'd love to stay and chat with you, but I have to go now."

"O-ok. bye!"

"bye sweetie!"
she said and walked off.

I then walked into the room to see Nate in a bed.

He's a little too thin.

I walk to his side and place the flower on the nightstand.

"Hey Nate...

It's been a bit now, hasn't it?...

A few months...

I- I'm sorry I was gone so long, I wanted to come, but I always thought it wouldn't be a good idea, but I realize that that was selfish...

I love you and just because you can't respond doesn't mean it's okay for me to abandon you like that...

I- I brought you a flower!
It's really pretty and I think you'd like it."

I sit down on a chair next to Nico's bed and continued.

"It means "my thoughts will follow you into your dreams" I hope you're dreaming at least.

I hope the last 4 years weren't too boring for you...

I already told you about my friends before, but today school started again and Carl told me that Butterflies don't poop.

I thought that was funny.

I thought about you a lot today.

I miss you."

Tears build up in my eyes again, but I let them roll this time.

"I almost started crying in the last lesson today.

David saw.

I- I don't want him to be sad so I said that the reason was in the past but I- I didn't mean it, I promise.

You're the most important person to me.
My best friend and I want that you wake up with all my being, but I can't control that, sadly...

If I could you, wouldn't have gotten into this situation at all though... you wouldn't be in a fucking coma."

I chuckle sadly.

"Your mom is so nice.

I wish my mom would be there as often as yours for you, but then I remember who my mom is again...

I love her, but you know what I mean... You've met her...

I drew you today.

I think you could have the drawing...

I'll just... leave it here..."

I'm fully sobbing at this point.

"If you were awake I'd give you the biggest hug...

I just want to be with you again."

I continued talking to Nate for an hour, but I eventually ran out of things to tell about, so I said bye and left.

leaving him is the worst feeling I've ever had...

I don't want to go, but I have to.

I walk to the bus station and wait.

Once I'm in the bus I start quietly crying again...

I have to visit him again soon.

What poor excuse of a best friend would I be otherwise?

Maybe I'll go the day after tomorrow?

I think that'll be alright.

Once I get home I immediately pass out on my bed.

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900 words

You understand more now?

good, good.

If you know Omori, you probably recognized the flower.

Hope you have a good day!

bye bye!

-Viv