//5:36 a.m//
Haven't talked to you guys in a while. I haven't slept at all. Slightly rough night I guess. The all time low concert I was talking about turned out to not be when we expected. We thought we'd be going to the one at Soundgarden downtown on my birthday, but we ended up getting ones for pier six. it was absolutely incredible. it was the best night of my life and I'll never forget it. My best friend Mikayla ended up not going due to personal reasons. I would've loved for her to go, but she doesn't do very well in crowds. it's just who she is. I love her anyways. I have had a difficult time lately. I'm pretty sure I want to raise the dose on my medication. I'm going to talk to my psychiatrist about it. my urges are coming back. Its a shame because my recovery was going very well. The day I left the hospital the last thing I heard is "Sage you're so young. you have you're whole beautiful world right in front of you. you have so much time to decide who you want to be. I don't want to see you back here." I fear that I'd end up back there. I don't want that to happen. Ive relapsed twice over about a six month period of being clean. which isn't very disappointing. I just don't want to be like I was before. idk I'm just worried and I was these urges to go away. I'm improving on guitar. I'm proud of myself. I just hope I get over this rough patch soon.
Overall mood: anxious/ sad/ kinda happy-ish
