Can't Unlove You

part 1 - the end

Briar

This story starts at the end, I think? At least I want it to be the end... it felt like it.

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My head was spinning.

I wanted my eyes to look away. To look like I wasn't breaking on the inside. But I couldn't.

I wanted my voice to stop cracking. To sound like this didn't affect me. But I couldn't.

I wanted my legs to hold me upright, or even walk away. But I couldn't.

I couldn't do this, I couldn't keep him. I couldn't do anything right.

And whose to blame when your the one who got yourself into this mess? I'm the one who caught feelings first. I gave him my everything. Turns out I'm as stupid as I used to believe. He used me, but I'm still stupidly in love with him.

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2 weeks earlier

You know you really love someone, when you don't hate them for breaking your heart.

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I met my eyes with his. I don't know what to say. I want to yell but I also want to run.

Before I can think of my next move he interrupts my thoughts and says lowly; "It's going to be okay...".

That is actually actually the worst thing he could've said to me right now.

"Yeah, because it's not happening to you." I speak up.

He fixes his posture. Towering over me now. He's trying to put me down slowly or whatever but fuck him.

He's the one breaking up with me for no fucking reason and he wants to play innocent? Not in my fucking book (Oops).

"You knew exactly what you were doing Grey. You knew it would crush me. And you knew it would hurt me. But somehow that did not stop you?" I questioned him.

Seconds passed by with no answer. Soon seconds felt like minutes and then hours. I couldn't bare to look into his eyes anymore.

Those eyes that drew me in. Those eyes that made me forget my problems. Those eyes that made me happy.

When I realized he didn't have anything more to say to me I cleared my throat and said my goodbye; "You should have just left me alone if I wasn't what you wanted." I whispered then stepped into my car with my eyes hanging low and puffy.

So this is the end? I hope you enjoyed it.

Because we are just getting started.