Asshole an autobiography

The Big #3

When I was younger I really sucked at picking women, I'm about to tell you a story about all 3, we'll name them Girlfriend A, B & C.

GIRLFRIEND A was my first proper girlfriend, this as 2 years after I moved from Johannesburg to Cape Town, I was 13 & she was 18, I know Pretty Illegal but my parents had known and so did hers, They were fine with it, Girlfriend A taught me quite a few things she showed me my first ever rock band (Black Vail Brides), she taught me how to play Counter Strike, And she was the first Girlfriend I had sex with.

In this relationship talking to her came easy because we had the same interests, We just spoke about anything that we thought was interesting.

Since she was the first girl I had ever had sex with it was the only thing I ever wanted to do, I was a horny 13 year old boy what did you expect, but slowly she started to lose feelings for me, it was because all I ever wanted to do was fuck, she slowly stopped saying she loved me and I didn't realize it, I was so stuck on the idea of sex and pleasure that I became unhealthy.

One day she asked me to meet her at the beach in strand, she wanted to talk.

She said "I don't think this is going to work, it feels like all you ever want to do is have sex, I think we should break up."

I know short and sweet, I replied calmly " Really I didn't think you really had a problem with it, you should of let me know, but if that's what you want fine." then I proceeded to walk away, as I walked away I had a realization " I swore to never just want sex in a relationship, ever since then I didn't have sex till I met girlfriend B.

Girlfriend B was my most Toxic relationship, this relationship actually broke the fuck out of me, it changed me forever, but I broke her as well,  we were the same age around 14, her birthday is the 6th and mine is the 8th of February,  the relationship started off good as all do, we used to fuck in the park under tree, that was my first time having sex in a public place, we both loved having sex, but I didn't like doing it all the time I did it because she wanted it, so to me it was ok.

On her birthday she threw a party, and invited a whole bunch of people, the was a group of guys she went to the shop with, without telling me so I was looking for her for at least an hour, people were telling me she went somewhere with some guy, keep in mind I didn't know who they were.

I thought she was cheating on me, so later that evening I met one of her friends, I was talking to her and I was drunk so I asked her if I can get her opinion on something, she had said yes, so I took my hand and I started scratching the back if her head, and she had seen wat I did, she came up to me and asked what the fuck I was doing, she stormed off not giving me time to explain, I went after her in her house and she started yelling and screaming, she told me she didn't want to see me and I should go the fuck away, she broke up with me, when my dad came to pick me up, I told him lets just go pls, for 3 days after that I would drink all the time at one point I wanted to take beers to the skate park, my dad stopped me, a few days pass and we get back together.

Almost a year into the  relationship, she had moved in with my dad and I because she was having problems with her mom and her moms boyfriend, this is where things get fucking disguising.

we slept in the same bed, I had a feeing she was talking to other people, and I was right...

wen she went to shower I went threw her phone, and I saw her asking some guy if they wanted to do some shit, yes exactly what your thinking...

I send him a screenshot of the msg and I told him thank you for saying no, he said no problem.

its crazy because we were in the same fucking bed when she was talking to him, the same fucking bed, here and I broke up but got back together several times after that, for 2 years straight.

she would say stuff like, Can you not call me babe so much its annoying, or i must call her by her name once in a while, I would say sorry and brush it off.

You Remember the girl I Scratched behind the head at girlfriend B's birthday, yeah, she became girlfriend C.

Girlfriend C was my best relationship by far, the only relationship i think about till this day, i was 16 she was 18, her smile could light up the world, the eyes would make you forget every word you were about to say , her kiss was like no other, she was special. We would play Xbox together a game called Split Second, she was so good at it we would compete to see who can drift better who could get first place, it was fun. 

she took me to my first bar to play pool (Die AFdak pub), she used to make the most incredible sauce for 2 min noodles, we would take this little blue sleeping pill that would make us so high that we  would see the paintings move, kinda like a wave.

we went to the same school (Mondeor Eco) she was on the SOS( school of skills) side and i was on the normal school side, we would always get in trouble because we would hangout, it was against school rules to communicate with the SOS side, we even went o the principle office, they told use we must break up we told them no, lol. 

our relationship was perfect, 2 years straight no fights, no arguments just pure love, but sex became a problem, it felt like to me all we did was have sex, how funny Girlfriend A broke up with me because of sex and I ruined a perfectly good relationship, because we loved each other so much that we wanted to please each other,  but I was so stuck on what Girlfriend A said, that I was blinded by the fact we didn't have a lot of sex, I put shit in my own head, at the age of 21 I still think about her, I can never talk bad about her, when she comes up in conversation I say only good things, being older I now understand that I was just scared history would repeat its self.

Bute she's married now and has a kid, her kid looks just like her, it crazy.

Each relationship taught me something, and they were all different, These 3 are the only relationships that stand out to me the most, and that taught me things i need to know for the next.

Every Relationships is a lesson for the next.