For The Suicidal

I wish I could see though your eyes

You seem so full of life, you know what's going to happen and why, you know what you want to do, you seem to see the shining sun on cloudy darkened days, your a bright star in the night sky that I can't take my eyes off, you have everything I wish to be, yet I am the complete opposite, I only see the darkness, I can never see what you do, you have a lot of friends, I only have you, your a nice person, I'm an asshole to almost everyone, I pretend I don't care even if it hurts me harshly, you express your feelings openly and rarely ever hide them, you can get your head out of the clouds, I have never been able to, you'd let yourself scream out for mental help if you needed it, I silence myself, to make you happy, so you don't worry, I laugh it off, for them to not worry, for you to not worry, so no one would give a second glance, you could tell your parents if you felt like you were something you weren't born as, I couldn't, our lives are so different, I'm surprised you want to stay around, I wish to see the shining sun over the dark clouds, I want to be happy, but that's just not possible for me, you'll be disappointed, I didn't stay, I told you I wouldn't, I told you couldn't, I've never been able to see the light or positives of anything, nor could I ever be as happy as you, there is no saving me, no saving me at all, I wish there was....

I just want to see the world though your eyes...