Too much can kill you? Pano kung yung too much na tinutukoy ko eh ung effort na binibigay ni Jan? Does it really kill me? Yes it can kill me sa kilig. One month of being together is such a big thing to me. Natagalan niya ung ugali ko. I can be jealous sa kahit na sino, kahit pabiro lang pagiging sweet nila. I can be jealous. I have the right to be jealous, 'cause I'm his girlfriend.
On our first monthsary i received a message from him, a really super duper sweet message. It's not that long pero kuha mo agad ung gusto niyang sabihin. He never fails to make me blush ughhh. It's just mafifeel mo na gusto mo siya na talaga. Na you can imagine your future with him. Sabi nga niya sakin. He can see his future, may anak, ung bahay nila ng wife niya sila ung nagdesign, sobrang saya daw nila, And he can only see that with me. Jan mean so much to my life. Nung dumating siya i've changed. Hindi na ako ung dati na mataas ung pride. I can forgive easily now. I've learned to show people how much they mean to me. Hindi na ko mabilis magalit. He had changed me into a better person. I really do love him. Sabi ng mga friends ko sa sobrang kabitteran sa buhay. Wala daw Forever, maghihiwalay din daw kami. I hope their wrong. We both agree na walang forever, pero we promise na papatunayan namin ang lifetime with each other. We argue, couples usually experience that thing. We both get jealous, but he always do get jealous, sa lahat ng friend kong lalaki. I'm trying naman to avoid them. But they came first into my life. I love Jan. But i can't promise to stay away to my friends. Jan had realize it. He understand na i have friends too. I know my limitations naman. Hindi na dapat ung tulad ng dati na clingy ako sa mga friends kong lalaki. I have him now. And i don't want him to get jealous all the time kaya hangga't kaya kong iwasan mga friends ko, ginagawa ko. Hindi ko laging iniiwasan pero i have to, sometimes. Jan gets jealous easily, minsan nakakapikon, Pero i've realized na he really loves me kaya siya nagseselos.
One day, napagkasunduan namin na ayusin ung kasal namin. Maybe it's too early to set things. Di naman siguro masama magplano diba? We have decided na sa San Sebastian Church kami ikakasal, na kami ung magdedesign ng sarili naming bahay, na kung ilan ung magiging imbitado sa kasal namin, na kung sino ung mga bridesmaid ko, na si Marvin ung gagawin naming best man niya. He had decided that kasi kung hindi daw dahil kay Marvin, we won't be together right now. Ang gaan lang sa pakiramdam na ung taong mahal mo kasabay mong magimagine ng future niyo. I won't let Jan be a loss to me. I won't let anyone ruin our relationship. I would fight for him. I always make him cry. Nagjojoke ako na break na kami. And he would fight for it. And be with me again. I really do feel his love for me. Nung nakilala ko second mom niya? When we first met, kinakabahan ako. Akala ko that would be the end of our relationship. Kala ko tutol si tita. And i'm glad na tanggap niya kami. We also try to tell sa mom ko. But sabi niya if Jan is serious. He would wait three years at umakyat ng ligaw sa bahay. Nung time na yun sobra akong pinanghinaan ng loob. Akala ko na naman ng dahil sa takot susuko si Jan. Akala ko makikipagbreak na siya. Natakot ako, akala ko mawawala na siya sa buhay ko. Pero pinaramdam niya sakin na kahit anong pagsubok kakayanin namin basta magkasama kami. He promise me and my mom na maghihintay siya ng three years. and atleast ngayongkilala na siya ni mama. di nga lang bilang boyfriend ko pero bilang bestfriend ko na gustong manligaw and willing maghintay ng three years para umakyat ng ligaw sa bahay. he would do anything daw para makuha muna ang kamay ng nanay ko. He is my one.
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