I Thought You Were Dead TWDG

Just Me And AJ

"Woah!" I yell. I had just had the same reoccurring dream from the time when I lost Lee. I should be over it by now, considering it had been years since the incedent.

But something just doesn't feel right. I wouldn't be alive if that man hadn't saved my butt more than probably a million gazillion times from either being shot or mauled and ripped apart by walkers.

Apparently my sudden outburst caused baby AJ to wake up from his slumber.

He's just a baby and look at all the horrible things he's had to grow up with. At least we know that he's not gonna be some wussy when he grows up, or hopefully at least not like Carver. That's not the way I'm gonna raise him.

As I get a grip on myself, trying not to bring up the past, I give AJ a baby blue pacifier with yellow and red teddy bears on it. I found it a few weeks back in an old abandoned "BabiesRus." Surprisingly, it wasn't torn, nor had any blood on it. I stick it in his mouth hoping he will shut up. Oops, I mean be quiet. That boy is the cutest thing I have ever seen, but I gotta admit, he can be a royal pain.

AJ and I have been together on our own for about a month now, and my birthday is coming up petty soon here, in about a week in a half. At least I think.

Ever since I left Jane and Kenny, things have been kind of rough. Not knowing that someone will be there for AJ if someone (or something ) takes me down, is kind of hard. If I go, he goes. As if it weren't any more obvious.

Thankfully, AJ is quiet for a little while, giving me an opportunity to think where we're headed next. In our past few weeks, we have been traveling, finding food and shelter, and just trying to SURVIVE. Its not that easy nowdays. As of right now, we are staying in an old hardware store. I think it was probably a Lowes. I can't really tell, though. Not even the world's greatest tools can fix everything that's going on, here. We can only rely on God, and hope things get better. Luckily, I found an old map of the general area.

There's nothing really around for a few miles, other than woods. Or the way we came. AJ and I are heading up North towards Wellington. Or at least trying to. Only God knows if we'll make it. No, Clementine, don't talk like that. We WILL make it. My plan right now is to head up to the nearest rest stop called... QuikTrip...I think. Its up towards St Louis, Missouri. Yes, we've actually made it to Missouri. Thank God.

My plan is to head up as soon as AJ wakes up from his little nap. I've got a little

bit of baby formula left, so you know, if he gets fussy or anything.