Amethyst

Chapter 1

Amethyst

Who am I? Who exactly am I?

I asked myself in my thoughts as I stare at the sky and watch the birds as they fly freely. I casually lied on the grass and put my hands behind my head. I closed my eyes and just let the air fly my strands of hair on my face. Again, I can't recall anything about my past. No matter how hard I try, my head only hurts afterwards. 

I had many questions in my head. I had many things to think of. But I can't think of anything. 

I wish my life were always this peaceful. 

Well, in my dreams. 

"AMETHYST!" someone called my name. And I knew. I knew something was wrong. 

I hurriedly stood up and ran towards Andreus who shouted at me. His body was covered in blood, and his eyes were dark. It was pitched black. 

Before he could reach me, an arrow suddenly shot his chest. 

I couldn't move. I could barely even stand while watching him fall to the ground while his hands trying to reach for me. 

A tear fell. For the first time in my life, I cried. 

I tried to look for the person who did it but everything was blury. Before everything went black, I saw a black figure walking towards me as I slowly closed my eyes because of diziness.

How I wish it was a dream. 

But it wasn't.

 "Amethyst!" a girl woke me up as I realized I was dreaming again. It's been two years since Andreus died and how I ended up here at the asylum. 

"Are you okay?" she was trembling in fear and when I looked at her directly in the eye, I saw fear. 

She was worried. 

I just silently nodded and tried to get out of the bed when she stopped me. " Wait lang, ikukuha kita nang tubig." 

She's Crissa, she was also admitted her at the asylum on the same day I was admitted here. The guards of the royals were the witness of the tragic event that happened to me 2 years ago. And for those years, it still haunts me everytime. Thankfully, Crissa was here. 

I haven't talked to anyone for the whole 2 years. I didn't exactly know what also happened to Crissa 2 years ago, but I didn't bother to ask her because I know that if she wanted to, she would. She was friendly to me, and doesn't bother that I don't even talk to her when she's talking to me. She kept saying, "it's okay" or like " it takes time to heal". 

But I know and I can feel that deep inside her, she's also hurt. 

Nobody in this asylum didn't suffered such a tragic past like I did, all of us here was a mess. All of us were going through something. We had our own battles. 

But for me, Crissa was the strongest among us. She was the most friendly, the most encouraging person I've ever met. 

After all, if I hadn't met her after Andreus died, I could've ended my life as well. 

Andreus was such an important person to me. He was the only one that I could hold onto. And I don't care back then if my parents wouldn't take me back from him, because being with him is enough for me. Siya na ang tumayong nanay at tatay ko para sa akin. 

Back then, I was curious kung bakit iniwan ako nang mga magulang ko sa kanya. Even he didn't knew who my parents are. But despite that, he accepted me like his own sibling. He was my everything.

I blame myself for not being with him at the house, I blame myself for not having enough strength to save him. I blame myself for being so soft that I couldn't even move til his last moments. And I blame myself for not answering to his last words, "Amethyst..Are you okay?"