The Last

"One Step Foward, Three Step Back"

*Idea by caelistair

Kevin's POV

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I tried ringing it again for the nth time. I've been calling her since 9 pm and its already past 2 am. I can't believe her. Lagi na lang ganito. I kept my focus on the road when I heard the cell provider's automatic response again.

Naiinis ako sakanya. Naiinis ako na lagi niya na lang ginagawa to. Almost 2 years na pero hindi pa din siya nag babago.

I tried calling her friends pero wala din nakaka alam kung asan siya. Hindi na daw sila inaaya because she knows na sasabihin nila sa akin kung asan siya. Her typical behavior is what makes her troublesome.

Kapag mag aaway kami ito ginagawa niya. She'll go AWOL. Pag aalalahin ako and then act like she didn't do anything wrong.

I stopped sa gilid ng street and started to calm myself down. Hindi makakatulong if pinapairal ko galit ko.

I have to think clearly. I have to think like her. Saan ako magpupunta if galit ako?

And then it hit me. I immediately started the car and drove to the place.

While driving there I started to remember the first time she acted this way

*Flashback

After 3 hours of looking for her nahanap ko siya sa isang bar sa BGC. Drunk and her friends holding her para lang makatayo siya ng maayos.

Lumapit na ako sakanila and they immediately passed her onto me.

"Sorry Kevs. Ayaw papigil eh."

"It's fine. Salamat sa inyo ha. Ingat kayo pauwi"

They went on their way and I held on to Patricia because she lost consciousness already.

I carried her towards my car and inayos ko na din siya ng upo. I even covered her legs para di siya lamigin.

While I was driving pauwi sakanila para mahatid ko na siya bigla siya nagising.

She didn't talk at first. She just looked confused. Must still be the alcohol.

"Matulog ka na lang muna. Mga 2 hours pa tayo since traffic ngayong Friday."

I adjusted my tone sakanya. Kahit na naiinis ako that doesn't mean I have to add another headache sakanya ngayon.

"Stop pretending like you care, Kevin. Halos kanina nga ipag tabuyan mo ako sa apartment mo."

"That was because you were making a scene. Come on, Pat. Pinapapasok kita ayaw mo. Mas gusto mo marinig ng ibang tao yung business natin."

She suddenly threw her phone at me. Muntik na kami mabangga sa car at our front because of my reflex.

"Ano ba?! We almost hit that car."

I parked the sa gilid kasi baka iba nanaman mabato niya sa akin.

I was going to confront her but what she said took the life out of me

"Sana hindi na lang ikaw boyfriend ko"

End of Flashback*

After that night she came sa apartment ko and apologized. Saying na lasing siya and di niya alam mga sinasabi niya.

I admit na I was hurt pero I still gave her the chance. I still accepted her and forgave her.

For a few months, maayos kami. We were happy. Wala na kami naging away and then suddenly nagkaroon and she did it again.

She got drunk. May nasabi nanaman siya na masakit. She apologizes. I forgive her.

Ganun naging routine namin.

Kahit na yung mga salita niya sobrang sakit na, pinapatawad ko pa din siya. Kasi sabi niya lasing siya, hindi niya alam sinasabi niya. II accepted her reasons.

Habang nag dridrive ako ngayon I felt tears coming down my eyes. Masakit kasi alam ko na kapag sinundo ko nanaman siya ngayon , magbibitaw nanaman siya ng salita na babawiin niya sa umaga.

Kahit na alam ko yun, pupuntahan ko pa din siya.

I arrived sa bar na madalas dito ko siya nahahanap and hindi pa ako lumalabas ng car nakita ko na siya.

She was with a dude and they were making out sa labas ng bar. Some people were cheering them on and I smiled sadly.

Baka mapano pa siya doon. Lasing pa naman siya.

So I went out and went towards them. Hindi na need na sobrang lapit ko kasi nakita agad ako ni Patricia.

"Kevin..."

"It's almost 3 am na Pat. Let's go home."

Hindi ko na need na hilahin pa siya or ipilit pa. Kusa na siyang sumama sa akin.

When we were in the car, siya unang nag salita.

"Kevin, I'm sorry. Hindi ko sinasadya. Lasing ako"

I smiled. Yun nanaman. Hindi ko na lang siya sinagot hanggang sa makarating kami sa bahay nila.

"Andito na tayo"

"Kevin please. I'm sorry hindi ko naman talaga sinasadya eh"

I breathed in and the I looked at her.

"Pat, tama na siguro. You can stop apologizing. Hindi ko na din matatanggap sorry mo ngayon."

She started crying. That was my weakness before. Pero ngayon mas masakit nararamdaman ko to worry about what she feels.

"Please Pat. Wag ka na pumunta sa apartment. Wag mo na ako tawagan or imessage. Wag ka na mag sorry. Just please leave."

I don't know what happened next. After saying those things to her I unlocked the doors pero di siya lumabas. She kept saying stuff na di ko na maintindihan.

After that I just realized na I'm driving na ulit and wala na siya sa passenger seat.

That's where I let my tears fall. That's where I said to myself na masakit na and tama lang na hindi ko na siya tanggapin.

The end.