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Jaydens pov
After all the hard times in Highschool I've never talk to that group again. I've made it clear that I didn't want anything to do with my mom when she called me from the prison she was in or the written notes that were sent.

Never talking to the people that did me wrong didn't help the mental pain that would come every now then. It was the people in my life that helped me the most. And of course my therapist.. Bless her soul.

Even after those many years I feel like me and Milan have been living off of his mothers ever since highschool. They begged us to get out college degrees before we moved out but we couldn't help but strive for independence and responsibility.

So now we were moving in with his cousin and his boyfriends aka reign and xander. Their house was big enough and Milan was planning to work with Ayato, business matters in the next few years.

I've never took time to think about myself and only the people around me but now that I take everything in, all the trauma, the mistreating, all of that.

I realize how fucking strong I am, I've heard that many times as I told my story to my closest friends but when I say it to myself it really means something.

I thought I wouldn't survive another year with my mother abusiveness but now that Im a few years mature, I learn that life goes on.. of course it does but like in a way that shit happens and then there's a positive side to the negative.

All of this thinking led me and Reign to our local Target, we we're going to make 'letting go' plates.

This was something people do to get rid of any frustration or anxiety but to also let go of the past, not forget it but let go of it, not letting it rule your life.

Before we got the plates me and Reign HAD to go to the Starbucks that was in Targets. He ordered a mocha frap for himself and a açai refresher for me.

What would I do without him?!??

We sat down as we waited for our drinks and made small talk.

Our name was called for the drink and we collected them and made or way to go get plain white glass plates and sharpies.

When I mentioned this idea he agreed immediately telling me there was things that he was letting go and it was dictating how he made decisions.

We got what we needed to get and basic necessities and left. We stopped for food we both picked McDonald's which was not really surprising.

"Jay, I feel so good that we are doing this, I mean.. me a few months back would not do this.. I'd literally get so upset because I'd act like theres nothing wrong with me when really there something that was."

Tears entered his eyes, I frowned and hugged him as we sat in the car and ate.

"Like this shit means something to me, I'm so proud of us because we really have came a long way.."

It was my turn to get emotional. What he said really rubbed on me, because I know I would be the exact same a few years back.

"I think it's us just growing up and accepting our bad feelings instead of letting them stay in our head and only letting the good feelings out." I said as I gently wipe the tears that formed.

He nodded in agreement.

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Me and Reign made it to the house and instantly started working on out plates. We wrote on them until they were completely covered and went outside to smash them on the ground.

"On the count of one!, two!, three!,"

We smashed them on the ground and seconds after we started cheering and immediately hugged each other.

After that we cleaned the glass up and had a mini movie night with just the two of us and ate many snacks.

Finally letting these chapters out after holding them hostage for a while. I wanted to focus on the things that wasn't talked about much in the book!! I felt like there wasn't enough positivity in it, sooo whoopdie doo.