How I wish time would stop

Chapter 10

1 day left...

Today...it's the last day. The last day of everything...the end of everything..

Here I am, in the bathroom, bawling my eyes out. While, Xylde is unaware..

"Why?! Why..I hate this! I hate this system!"

I take deep breaths, making myself more calm..

It's the last day..just breathe. Make this day last..like never before..

I wipe my tears, as I start to leave the bathroom. I purposely put on makeup to hide the redness of my eyes from crying

I saw Xylde who was looking at me, smiling brightly

I put on my fake smile "What's making you smile so much, baby?"

Xylde hugs me, wrapping his arms around me. His furrows his eyebrows, noticing my puffy eyes as soon as we were close.

He held his hand up, carrasing one of my eyelids, gently. He was barely touching me yet I felt comforted.

"Why were you crying, Darling? Is it because.."

He made up a lie for me already. I felt bad, deceiving him and making him worry over me like this. However, I needed to make sure he wouldn't see through me. I don't want my last day to be filled with him looking at me with sadness.

I continued to stay silent, giving a small shrug to confirm his suspicions.

"Darling, there is this amusement park that I would like to go to with you. I know you must have been sad because of yesterday.. with all that coldness from your parents. How about we go so you can relax?"

I couldn't help but smile. I wrapped my arms around him, placing my head on his chest before nodding.

"Okay.. it's my favourite place, after all."

He pecks my forehead, giving me a worried look. He must still be thinking that I cried because of the whole situation yesterday. That was half true. I was devastated, knowing I would leave them but what breaks my heart is leaving Xylde. Once and for all. Even if I didn't want to.
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Screams, cotton candy, popcorn, dollar coasters. Even a kid vomiting at the corner after a ride. This was the favourite place that I love. The amusement park.

Xylde and I walked through the park, rushing around like little kids (more like me dragging him with me) to the different roller coasters, food and even the souvenir shop where we wore cute headbands. I was wearing the Minnie mouse one and he was wearing the Micky mouse one. Cute.

We even took several pictures of us posing together with many couple poses, of course. Another memory for him to recall when I leave.
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By the time we finished exploring the whole amusement park for the third time, it was already nighttime. The stars were starting to scatter across the dark sky and the lights from the amusement park were switched on. Bright and colourful.

"How time flies right, Xylde? It's almost time to go home already.."

I clenched my fists. It was almost time for us to bid farewell to one another..

"Yeah, there's just one last thing for me to do before we leave."

No. Nonononononono. Why now? Why must he do this now? The tears start to drip down my cheeks.

That smile on his face. That sincere smile and heart eyes as he kneeled to the ground and pulled out a ring box.

Opening it and showing the diamond ring. A ring for us to be engaged.

I covered my mouth with my hand, hiding the fact that I was biting my lip to remind myself not to break down in front of him. Be strong. Strong.

"I know this is sudden, especially this time. I should have picked a time when you weren't so down from the family fight. But Darling, this system that was forced upon us made me realise that I cannot live without you. I want to treat you right. Like the princess you deserve to be. Darling, my love, will you marry me and give me this chance?"

I looked at him. His determined eyes that were filled with love. This must be the reason why I fell in love with him in the first place. He wants to marry me. I want to marry him. But I know I can't. I can't accept this..

"Xylde.. I"

He looks at me, his eyes show confusion and panic. He notices the hesitation I have. And yet, he was willing to listen to what I have to say.

"I love you. I really do. But I have been lying to you all this time.. and I can't help it anymore. My heart can't take this."

I glanced at the time from my watch. I specifically wore it today so I could know when to tell him my thoughts. Now, it's the time.

"I'm going to die today, Xylde. I didn't get 80 years like you. I got 5 days. And today, is the last."